a word is left by me..

2011-11-17T15:51:00.004+08:00

时间过得真快，转眼间一年又要过去了！
在这段时间里发生了很多事，也让我学到了很多！
在没有“他”的日子里，我努力地忘记他，也努力地学习独立！
虽然有时候我想到他还是会伤心，但只要他开心幸福，我就心满意足了!

我把空出的时间跟朋友出去,陪家人,和学我想要学的东西!
我想实现我的梦想!
最近我终于开始学了跳舞和韩语!
跳舞是我一直想学的,现在终于能有时间和机会和我的好姐妹一起学,我等了好久啊!
我一定要学会 Kara-STEP!
lalalalala~~~

我现在的工作也比较轻松，没有像以前那样忙。
这里的人也很好,互相帮忙,也很友善!
我认识了一些蛮好的朋友。
有时候我还会不知不觉的露出笑容!
我真的好开心和幸运我能得到这份工,谢谢老天爷！

我希望“他”的人生没了我也能很快乐，充实。
在大学里能活得精彩,找到一个比我好一千一万倍的女孩！
谢谢你给了我那么美好的回忆，我永远都不会忘记的!
你在我心里永远有一个很特别的位置,是无人能取代的！
再见了我的好朋友~！
你一定要幸福！！！
(不要辜负我的一番好意!）
我们大家一起加油！！！！！ =P

2011-04-30T11:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I went to see my fortune with Yen Lin at Marsiling near OCBC bank. I went to ask for my relationship while she asks for her career. She wanted to change job but not sure whether she shld quit first then find or vice versa.

We went there for 2 times before but failed. Finally, we managed to see him this time!He is 60 yrs old but looks like 30+. Yen Lin went first. He said she is clever and shld further her studies. She must have more confidence and find a job first before quitting.

After her is my turn. He said that the relationships that I have not are all "shits". My "prince charming" will only appear when I am 27 or 28. And I must not be too easy on relationships. The job that I have now is good and I should not change anymore.

After hearing all these, we find that he is very accurate! He did not even charge us!
I think I should not be so bothered by relationships now as all my relationships dun seem to work for now. Mayb it is really destined that the right person has not appeared. I am really very hurt and troubled by the relationships that I have recently. They are all "烂桃花"!All I want is just a person who cares and loves me...is that so difficult? Sometimes, letting go may be a gd thing too......

All I want to do now is to make a change to my life now. I want to do all the things I wanted to do for very long! For eg, driving, dancing, singing and participate in media stuffs if possible! The most impt....make more friends! In that way, I think I will be happier and I can live life to the FULLEST!!!!!!!!=P

2011-01-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

第一天的我...哭了一整晚...
我几乎没睡到就醒来...眼睛张开时还是有眼泪...
眼睛好肿,身体好累,但是我还是睡不着...
闹钟没响我就醒来了,然后又开始哭...
在家里哭,在作工时也哭,甚至走路或搭地铁时都哭!!
我开始觉得我生病了...喉咙很痛又有感冒...

第二天的我...用了比较少的纸巾擦眼泪...
但是我还是很伤心,还是继续哭...
不过至少我还睡了三个小时...

第三天的我...终于好多了!
我只是用了一张纸巾!
我以为我好了,但是当我一个人时,我又开始哭了!
我好讨厌我自己...为什么我的眼泪就是不停的掉!!

也许我不该再奢望了...放弃也许对谁都好...

2010-08-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

Alot of things happened recently. I have gained and lost alot these few mths! I have gained experience in TV productions, chance to work and make new frenz in recruit express, closer to my RWS frenz, catch up with my "old" frenz and learnt to be closer to my family! However, I lost some things like chances to go overseas for holidays and participate in Maybelline contest!I lost freedom to even take no pay leave to go for filming for Maybelline!*sob*...I also wanted to go Shanghai with Yun Hui, Germany to visit Jiayi, and Japan with Ren Da!! But all these will not happen if I am not confirmed as perm. That's why I'm working very very hard now to be confirmed asap. I am late for work recently due to the rain and train fault. Above are the things that I have done for the past few mths!

2010-06-13T23:36:00.004+08:00

Everything seems to happen so fast....one moment I m very sad, one moment I am very happy....one moment I give up, one moment I regret... I admit I still have not totally forgotten or given up...mayb tats the bad pt abt me...cannot make up a decision and too easily persuaded...anyway I m not a person who can easily forget abt something...esp relationships... and there r things I dun wish to forget...mayb tats wad they said...happy memories ba...but I m really not prepared and not brave enough le...

Mayb wad I need is time ba...mayb one day if I m touched by the things he has done, I may find back my courage. Anyway I dun wanna be his burden. I wanted very much to tell him to wait for me...but I m afraid I may be wasting his time again and hurt his feelings. Most importantly, I dun wanna hinder his future. Although I say I wanna forget, but said is easier than done. I m still very "she bu de!" I really miss him alot....but for the sake of his own good, I m willing to do anything...including forcing myself to forget him...(zhi yao ni kai kou, wo she me dou yuan yi zhuo!) I think somewhere deep in my heart, there is always a "place" reserved specially for him. I hope one day we can really forget all the unhappy things tat happened and will be happy together!

2010-03-23T13:37:00.004+08:00

Many things happened during this period of time when I did not write my blog. Firstly, dear dear broke up with me! I was so sad that I fell sick. However I had no one to blame but myself. I brought it upon myself. From now on, I had to learn how to be independent. Nobody will be there for me when I lost my way, nobody will be there for me when I need to know if the things are worth the money, nobody will be there for me to give me opinions of how nice the dresses are, nobody will be there to inform me abt sales and gd "lobangs" and alot more................

Secondly, I m working at Pantages Hollywood at Universal studios freelance crew now. The pple there are super friendly! But dear dear is stationed at battlestar gelatica. Although we are quite near, we nv met.....He does not wish to see me or talk to me. Thus I decided not to disturb him for some time as he said he's enjoying his life now. *sob*......

Thirdly, my relationship with toufu man seems to be more complicated. We became closer but I was afraid of hurting him. He's really a very gd and caring person who deserves a better person than me. I m jus a normal girl who's always blur and always make pple angry. He really helped me alot thru the period when dear dear broke up with me. Sometimes I would think if I m really worth his love. No matter wad, thx for everything!! Thx for tolerating all my nonsense, thx for all the care and concern, thx for ur help, thx for ur company and thx for being there for me when I needed u most.

髪でリボン編 Hair Tutorial Ribbon-shaped Up-do ロングヘアアレンジ

2009-10-04T15:06:00.001+08:00

Nice ribbon...too bad my hair is nt as long and as thick as hers!!

How To: Style a Bun Bao

2009-10-04T12:41:00.001+08:00

This is a video which I found yest. She's really an expert in DIY!!! I really learnt alot from her!

2009-10-04T12:25:00.002+08:00

I feel so 呆 recently! I was cheated by Jay and 2 newcomers, James and Terence! Jay impersonate as a pre-en calling my project phone and asked me out for dinner. He said he was George Michael and said I could ask Ivy along if I m afraid. He also remembered who I m as he said I was the one who spoke very fast. He said he owned the F1 race track and has a degree in mechanical engine and owns science technology. And guess what....I really believed everything!

Actually there are alot of loopholes but I did not realise it! I even went to check paces and there is really such a person! But lives in FLora rd while he told me he's in pasir ris and mount faber hills. He said he could give me 20 tics to front row of F1 and I even went around to gather pple!! So paiseh!!! There was once I walked out of the room but nv see Jay talking to me. In the end they asked me to call the person then I saw Jay taking out his phone. I tot it was Madu and called again till he told me it was HIM!! I then went to tell everybody the F1 race was a scam...omg...feel so deceived!!!!*sob*....

The 2 new medics bluff me too by saying each other's name. James told me he was Terence and vice versa. I jus happened to realise it when they accidentally spill it out when chatting. But I talked to Terence b4 jus tat I had forgotten the looks cos all look the same w/o hair! Haiz...

2009-09-12T22:10:00.007+08:00

It's Adeline's housewarming! We went after work and took bus 169 change to 138. Sheng Tong taught us how but we still got lost after he dropped us at thomson rd...haha...We exceeded the bus stop and went back. Sheng Tong went for award ceremony first.

We reached abt 2 plus and Adeline's house is very nice!!! 3 storey and has a white elegant theme! Her husband is very humorous and friendly too! He kept offering us beer and wine! Lianghui drank the most as he finished the fastest...haha...Her cousin, Pauline, brought her dog and her dog liked Adeline's 15 mth old daughter alot! She even kissed the dog!!omg...so cute!!!

After that I rushed home for my grandma's b'day celebration. I took the cab together with Wei Hong and Liang Hui till Yishun.

I came out soon after I reached home and went to Sembawang for a big feast! I was super full as I had already eaten at the housewarming. My uncle's wife brought red wine so I drank another round again. Then we went to my uncle's house to cut cake. My grandma was so happy and everybody had a good time together! They even planning to go Genting during x'mas!hehe... YEAH!! HAPPY B'DAY AH MA!!!! May u be happy always and stay healthy!=P

2009-08-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

Sad, sad, sad......We got scolded by our bosses(ST,YY,F) today. We missed out a few count no. last fri and we changed the subject no. However, Adeline wants us to change count no. Thus, we repeated our previous mistake.

The mistake was done when somebody accidentally tear the count no. from the other side. Adeline is on mc but called Ivy to ask wad happened. We told her we changed the subject no. as she said minimal error and we thought subject no. coulde be changed!

We were very afraid of being sacked and so we both cried. We went back to dso and had meeting. We OT till 9pm! Fredrick they wall did not wanna sack us but he said cos' of this he had to overwrite Adeline. Adeline wanted to dismiss us. Now it seemed that she is the "bad" person when she's not! We also raised the issue of lack of staffs so we having a new colleague soon.

Recently I m guilty to so many pple! Adeline, ST, YY, Fredrick, ex......
This is really our last chance. Chikada saved me another time. Thx!=P

2009-08-16T21:19:00.002+08:00

I watched 娱乐百分百, previous episode, as I missed it the other time. They are all talking abt the 台风 which hit 台南 recently. Alot of pple died and there were floods everywhere. Alishan is destroyed and the people there were mourning over the deceased....a sad scene...

I was very sad on seeing the news and wanted to help them too. The artistes in Taiwan also helped by donating money. It made me realise how lucky we were to be staying in a "natural disaster free" country and：

生命是如此的脆弱，没有人知道明天会发生什么。
所以我们要珍惜我们拥有的一切，不要失去了才后悔！

I watched ep 11 of 败犬女王 too...It is very touching when they realised that it was all 误会 and they had wasted 6 yrs...And as usual...I cried as I was touched by it too when they knew the truth...I like a phrase in the show:

八倒过来看就是无限大的可能！(infinity)

2009-08-11T23:10:00.005+08:00

Today Yixun and I went to mass room to chat as he asked me if I could be his gf. As Xing Cai and Renda are sleeping in the darkroom, he msg to ask me. He asked me b4 when there were onli the 2 of us last last mon. He locked the door and we chatted. I told him that I would consider at that time.

We chatted abt 2 hrs in the room. He told me he had 9 failures in love during his 3yrs in MI. All rejected him. He said the 1st had bf, 2nd is nt gd....the previous one is gd but being rejected and so he said I am the best. However, I told him I am not gd and not worth him being sad over me. Furthermore, I have no feelings for him. I even told him to change but he asked if he could ask me the q again after he had changed. However I know it is impossible. I just don't have that 心跳加速的感觉! Maybe cos I may have "somebody" in my heart w/o me knowing or mayb I have not forgotten abt "dear dear".

2009-08-08T23:59:00.004+08:00

Me and "小白脸"

We had class gathering at SSC. We ate Astons for dinner. However, the food there is not very gd...ok onli... JY hair has become golden from red!lol... He even told us alot abt this batch uni pple. The guys are so pampered that they dun even dare to go into the mud. On fright night, they even trembled and there were 2 guys who even asked each other if they could HOLD HANDS!!OMG... On SP night, they even asked q like "wad do u tink abt michael Jackson's death?" And when asked of their OG group so that my fren, OGL, can bring him back to slp, he even refused to say! Diaoz...

After that we went to play mahjong at BL's house! It was the first time I won! (even though onli $5 plus and I used it to buy drinks for everybody)

And at the same time....
Everybody knows that I had broken up with "dear dear"....

2009-08-01T23:38:00.006+08:00

OMG....He's Sooooooo CUTE!!!=P

We started working on sat and after work, Ivy and I went to IMM to see Wilber Pan!He's still as "boy boy" as ever!Esp when he cut his new hairstyle!keke...I did not buy his album as the new version is sold out! The old version onli left 3. I was tempted to buy but decided to watch first. The DJ is Peifen.

His hand is injured so he could not sign and changed it to a "hugging" session! Luckily I did not buy!hehe...BUT I will buy it eventually cos he's the BEST!!!LOL...

Rainie Yang came too but I could not go and see as it needs tics and I cannot win!*sob*....But I saw her wearing quarter pants, abit loose... in youtube. Guess tat shld be the "in" thing now...I am going to buy one online!!haha...

2009-07-27T23:03:00.005+08:00

Today Yixun had something to tell me. He wanted to tell me before work starts. However I was late. So he did not tell me anything till case cut. Ivy had something on at home so she took half day off in the afternoon. Wei Hong came to help too but half day here too.

I knows what he wants to tell me and I know that I could not avoid it. He will tell me sooner or later. I do not want to hurt him as I know that he had been hurt previously and he was very sad. He said he remembered very clearly as he had a good memory. He took abt half a yr to recover! And he is a person who do extreme things. How am I to tell him that I only regard him as bro? I do not want him to go back to the past and say "Love is a weapon of mass destruction"! I do not want to hurt him nor do I want anybody to be sad cos of me! Furthermore if I can accept him, why I cannot accept Youquan in the past? He is very gd too and I had feelings for him too. But I was afraid there'll be alot of prob for us due to age(smaller by 3 yrs too) and decided to let him go. I know he's very sad and he sacrificed alot for me, talking on the phone everyday(so bill burst) and scolded by parents. Haiz...suddenly memories keep coming back...hope he's doing fine and has found a girl 100 times or more better than me! Jiayou Youquan! I will be here 默默为你加油!!

When case cut, Meng siang came into dark room to tell me abt him and Ivy. He was sad that he and Ivy bacame lidat. He does not know if he should hang on or let go. I told him to give it a last try. If really cannot then let go. After that, Yixun came in and talked to me. He asked me if I knew he likes me. I feigned ignorance and said I tot it is all rumours. He said is all true and asked if I can be his gf. I do not know what to reply him so I said to consider. I continued to say I am not a gd gf and I am older than him. He said it's ok as his parents do not mind and he said I m nice and cute. Then I asked again y he do not like Ivy as normally pple will like her. He said he dunno y but just like. I continued to tell him abt the things that he should change like his eating style. We spent abt 30 to 45 mins talking lidat ba.

2009-07-06T22:48:00.008+08:00

Today during work, Yixun wrote a Malay phrase. I do not wad it means. But then Ivy says he very daring and he explains to me after that. It means "I like this girl". I was too shocked for words. Then he changed the like to "sayang" which I dunno wad it means. But I think it shld be worse than like ba..haha...

Btw I meet Darren for dinner! SO long nv see him le!! We went to Isetan at lido there for Hello Panda fair. But when we reached there, it just closes! After that, we went to Yixun's mother shop upstairs. Her mother is English educated and very friendly. His uncle knows chinese medicine and help me to see. He says my nails are very thin and not enough "qi".

He helps Meng Siang to massage his hand as he asked him why his nails are black. Meng Siang is in pain for a period of time. Yixun's brother is very cute and looks like Yixun! Very active and likes to "twist".

Then Darren and I went to far east plaza to eat noodles. He treat me.

2009-05-30T23:40:00.004+08:00

Older by 1 yr again...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

Dun kill me kor kor....

Group photo!

204 gathering! We went to orchard again. Jun Yuan, Ben, Hui Lin, Peishan, Ming Siew, Yingjie, Yuankai, Jiayi, Binglin came. We knew that Hui Lin and Ben broke up due to different personalities and many other problems. They broke up 1st April! Huilin had test the following wk!

Ben changed. He smoked and even smoked the whole packet per day! He even had a left earhole. We went to breeks to eat. The ice cream was 1-for-1 and very big! They bought a cake to celebrate my birthday, from Bakerzia! I was so touched...din expect them to still celebrate it after so long! After that, all went home.

Peishan, Huilin, Ben and I went to clarke quay to continue drinking. We went Eski bar! The one which I wanted to go in the past! We ordered Eski Blue and some other alcoholic drinks. It was the first time I felt dizzy after drinking.It costs abt $244! Peishan and I shared a cab home, abt $30.

2009-05-29T23:36:00.002+08:00

Today Moses asked me for my hp no. He was very sad recently as he just broke up with his gf. He said that he had no one to talk to tat's y he took my hp no. I gave him my email @ too. Everybody said he was a hypocrite with 2 personalities but I think he's harmless, at least to me. Instead, I find him pitiful as he seemed to have no frenz. His ord chalet is even cancelled as nobody wanted to go! He had to pay as he had already booked the chalet. However, he was very gd in shooting! He went into the next stage at suntec for arrow shooting!

2009-05-21T23:33:00.003+08:00

Today I fell down! Ivy was rushing for time to watch movies so we took cab from NUS to Jurong east. I fell when my foot twisted and landed sitting on soil with rocks. So I was cut on the leg by the stones. Han Yang was also obviously wooing Ivy by looking at the msg. I think Ivy should tell them she has bf and dun let them have the wrong impression if she thinks that the person won't have any chances. Cos' if it was me I will not want to waste other pple's time too if I don't like that person. He can use that time to find other pple instead of wasting time on me.

When I just reached MMI with Edwin and Ivy, I saw a guy fell down in front of me. One of his legs broke the stone drain and went in! Everybody including me helped him up since he was directly in front of me.

When I was walking home in the big rain, I saw a guy almost fell cos' of slippery floor at my house downstairs.

2009-05-19T23:25:00.005+08:00

I have my second welcome back gift. A guy named Min Jie said I was cute and wanted my facebook! At first I thought it was Ivy as it was Ivy who did the AS-OCT for him. He was a guy with an ah beng look. He was a fanciful ah beng cap with tattoos on hand. He msg to project phone and asked if I was Joyce.

I thought he recognised the wrong person as I did not really notice or see him. I just walked past him! So I gave Ivy the phone to reply him. However, Ivy asked him if he was looking for the one in strips or the one who did the AS-OCT for him. He said it was me but it seems unbelievable although Ivy said he could not make it.

2009-05-18T23:15:00.004+08:00

Missing this VERY SCARY mini roller coaster!

I am finally back from Taiwan! I miss Taiwan!!! It is the first day of work since I came back and Ivy told me some things happened while I was away. Kar Beng became friends with her when Jesslin and her have conflicts. Jesslin is angry when Ivy just asked her something and she misinterpreted it and thought Ivy was putting words into her mouth. Moses pretended to talk to Ivy but he talked bad abt her at the back. He backstabbed other NS guys before too...like E-noch.

Ivy seems to like Kar Beng and he seemed to be more mature and "bad" as we see him. He talked differently in msg. Same for Han Yang. Yixun was playing darts for the whole day. Just as Ivy and I were digging papers for the next day, Yixun suddenly flew the dart past Ivy and hit my forehead! It flew past Ivy's face. Ivy scolded Yixun and Victor heard it. Ivy used alcohol as antiseptic and it was abit bleeding. Yixun later said sorry to me but I was not angry with him. I just hope that he'll not be emo and always think of committing suicide. Haiz...I think he should not brood over a girl and should move on!! There are alot of other good girls outside!! Jiayou!

2009-05-16T23:40:00.005+08:00

The beach there is so different and the ROCK is super nice!!I am near the PACIFIC OCEAN!!!=P

So windy!!

sunset at yu ren ma tou...

The well-known queen's head

Nice lovers' bridge!Very romantic!

I came back to Singapore from Taiwan at 12am. Below are my Taiwan trip details!

Day 1
Go to 星光三越 and 渔人码头 see sunrise and sunset. There was a bridge there at yu ren ma tou called qing ren qiao. It was very nice at night with purple light and very romantic!

Day 2
Go to Tai Ru Ge mountain to climb and look at pacific ocean.
We go on a 1 day tour in a cab. The person who took us around was super friendly!
We went to Hualien too!

Day 3
Went to Taipei 101,Ximending and Shilin. Din do much. We did not go up 101 as it was too ex. It was actually a working building.

Day 4
Go to Ri Yue Tan (sun moon lake) and Tai Zhong.

Day 5
Went on a 1 day tour again. Go Jiufen, Yehliu and Keelung night market.
All are up the hills! Jiufen is something like street stalls in the hills.
We went to fly Tian deng too!

Day 6
We stayed at Taipei. Went to 五份铺 and Raohe night market.

Day 7
Shifted our service apartment to homestay near shilin night market.
Shan and Yixian went Gao Xiong by Gao Tie to fing Shan's cousin to bring them around.
Me and Esther stayed in Taipei as it was too ex!(fri considered wkends over there!)
We went shopping at Zhongshan and Taipei main station. Drink the famous coffee at 85 degrees cafe.

Day 8
Went 六福村, a theme park.
We only managed to go 2 themes(1 is palace) and there were many themes there! Need abt 6 hrs to finish all!
We sit water splash, boat riding by the stream,360 degrees turn, train ride thru a scarry and adventurous tunnel, theatre(like omni theatre), see scenery ride anda mini roller coaster with the seats moving 360 degrees.

2009-05-06T00:33:00.003+08:00

It is my birthday today! However I was sick...flu...I went to work alone as Ivy needs to meet Adecco agent for philips shaver showgirl job. Every wkend 1-9pm @ $9/hr. She came abt 10 plus.

During lunch, I did not eat with Ivy as she said she's eating with her mum. I bought food back to eat at the station...burger...At abt 1pm, Ivy came back. She said there's a meeting at "the box", so Renda and I went there. I was shocked when I went in!! Everybody sang birthday song! I was so touched!! Ivy and Victor went to buy cake during lunch! They gave me a card and flower too!

When we go to DSO, Ying Ying wished me Happy Birthday. I was shocked too as I do not know that she knew abt it. Ivy told her. Then Frederick called me out in a fierce manner. I thought he was going to scold me. Then, Ying Ying suddenly sang birthday song! I was so shocked! She gave me a present too!

This is the year that I have the most surprises and shocks. But I am very happy!! I thought nobody would know...thanks everybody!

2009-04-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

There is a big spider at cmpb today! Xing Cai and Renda saw it when they were eating in the box. It was a big brown spider with smaill head and big body. However when we wanted to go take a look, it disappeared as somebody scared it off. It was so huge that somebody had to use the big round container which we usually use to contain biscuits to capture it! It was roughly the size of the cap. Too bad it ran away and I did not get the chance to see it....haiz...

2009-04-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

Today everybody at CMPB was curious to find out who bought Ivy and me oreo cuppuccino. They suspect Yixun, Kah Beng and wenjie. They "interrogated" Yixun first and asked him who he'll chosse between Ivy and me. He chose me as he said Ivy smokes and so lung is polluted(diaoz). Thus they continued to ask him who he'll choose if Ivy does not smoke. His answer is the same. Then when Jaya said that I have degree and he does not have, he said he have degree(specs) too...we laugh till "peng"...haha...

In the end, Edwin and Jaya found out that it was actually Raj himself who bought it.

2009-04-20T23:26:00.001+08:00

During work, Yixun suddenly became emotional and wrote a few words:"LOVE IS CLASSIFIED A WEAPON OF MASS DESTUCTION". They said that he always write these few words and he seemed emotional. It looks like he's just fallen out of love. He said that things that should not happened has happened but refused to say what is it.

Then Wenjie tried to console him. Good words came out and we were surprised! He said:
L-love of sorrow
O-ocean of tears
V-valley of death
E-end of life
It did make some sense!

2009-04-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

Graduation bear...

Me with Prof Phip...WOW!!!

YEAH!!Graduated!Our class...

Me and my cousin...

Me,Fion and Sharon!

Graduation day!!! I finally have my graduation ceremony after waiting for abt 1 yr! I took half day leave to go for the graduation. I took my robe with me to work and wore white blouse and black skirt. I left cmpb at abt 11.45am but there was alot of pple today. Luckily Wei Hong would be there to help Ivy.

I was the first to reach there so I saw the previous group of graduates. Lovell was there too with his gf, Xiaohui. He called me and so we took photos together. After that we went to register at the hall and waited for Kaijun. When she came, we went into one of the LTs to wear our robe. There were pple from serangoon broadway to help us wear the robes.

After that, we took some photos and proceed to the hall. As I got third class honours, I was separated from Yanling and Kaijun. However, I had the chance to talk to Kenny and Kristel. They were in my class too but seldom had chance to talk to them! Kenny is an Indonesian and studied in HK after SIM and graduating soon. Kristel had second lower and was working in mindef, same as me, research.

After the ceremony, we went to have tea reception and took photos! We took with Prof Phil as he wore scottish skirt! So cool!! I also took with Darren...so long nv see him and he is graduating this year! Then we had class photo too with Tianlai they all. We oso took a video which showed all of us throwing our "hats"! We graduated!!=P

2009-03-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

It was raining very heavily today! But as usual, the company bus just dropped me at nuh staff canteen. Thus I need to take out my umbrella. As Wei Hong needs to do his presentation today, I did not go to work with him. He is driving and is a new car...haha..

He reached earlier than me and we went into 11th floor and played games! They are launching tml so we are testing it out. We fight against each other for 2 rounds till lunch break and he went for presentation. He was selected by his school to participate in symphony. Each sch only 1 person! So altogether abt 11 person. But 1 person back out.

He came back abt 3 plus and helped to guide the people who came for interview to become my partner! There are 2 china girls but I think they are not selected. I think they're selecting a pretty girl, cos' when I was going home, I met Frederick, Ying ying and Sheng Tong and they were discussing who were more pretty and who to select.

It makes me more convinced that being pretty is advantageous! Too bad I am still far from it...haiz...Wei Hong asked his parents to drive his car back after his presentation at TP so I took bus 95 with him after work.

Ying ying's father was admitted into nuh last fri due to heart attack. He just undergone an operation and had some morphine. In all, it was an ok day but I do not know why I was not as cheerful as the previous days...has my enthusiasm faded off? Or mayb just that there's nothing for me to be happy abt today...

2009-03-12T16:27:00.005+08:00

Today is the fourth day of my work and I am writing this posting in my office now...hehe... Everything has been going smoothly till now.My supervisor Frederick even said he wanted to convert me to contract as they think that my salary is too low($9/hr). However, they cannot increase further as I am only a temp. Thus, they actually outsourced an agency.

I will receive abt $2000/mth after conversion. If I am good, the pay may increase by max $400 after 6 mths...I was so happy!!! From just a temp job becomes a good job! I can don't need to fred over job for 1 yr 3 mths!

These few days I have been clearing and cleaning up vision lab. However, we are giving up vision lab 4 so we need to clear everything out. I also did some templates for the forms the NS need to fill in. And... I don't need to work tml and I am paid!! So happy!! Keke...cos the perm staffs have some outdoor event.

I also knew a guy called Tay Wei Hong. He is working temp till abt June or July when he go NS. He is a very clever guy with GPA of 3.8! From TP...biotech...gd in science but bad in maths...but I think overall still gd...

I went to work with him on the 2nd day so that I know where is the shuttle bus. There is a company bus to DSO from 7.45am to 8.15am, 15 mins interval. He even read mag like American scientist(imported) and read story books during free time. And...he did not want to declare he has spine prob as he do not want to slack in army. He self studied computer and he seemed quite good at it! He knows how to take out the parts. He has a younger bro and sister but he does housework too. He got his results yest and he got the highest rank! Really very bright student...!

2009-03-03T00:17:00.003+08:00

I received news that I got into indoor stadium! All thanks to darling(he recommended us). I think both his frenz got in too...hehe... However I still did not receive any news from DSO. Haiz...dunno when they will let me start...I am so bored!!! Somebody from international sos called me today for a phone interview. It is quite gd and somemore it is a perm job. Just that it is shift work.

I also received news that I need to hand in my research for Ho CHi Minh tml! And I still had alot to do...thus I think I will only get very little money.(If finish everything $160) But it is very tiring so I just sent it over for them to finish. I received my parcel for UOL cert today too...=P

2009-02-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

At the Siglap pizza hut with dear dear

Happy Valentines Day! Today I went to Tampines with baobei and then go Siglap to eat pizza hut. It was the first time I went to Siglap. It was very special as shops and houses were together, abit like Holland village.

We wanted to eat a restaurant named 惠 there but as it was v'day, they took away all the menus except for the special set. Thus we had to come out after sitting down. We ate the couple meal at pizza hut. A hiphop guy named Farazi was the host there. He was very gd in introducing and serving. There was Gelare and Hong Kong cafe too which open 24hrs on fri,sat and sun.

2009-02-06T23:27:00.003+08:00

Me and my cousin in hotel!

Trying out clothes at Mango...

Our WINNINGS!!!

The cap which I bought at Genting!

I just came back from Genting. I went there from wed till today. I went with urica and her parents. My father and ah ma went there too. We took a coach to Genting and we saw a van overturned on our way up the hill. We reached abt 1pm but they were having break. So we could only wait till 3pm for check in. We went to eat at a restaurant named Hainan.I ate their toast and it seemed not bad. After checking in we slept and rested till dinner time.

At night, we went to play at casino at night. I played big small and won $600. I only bet $25 per game. If I bet bigger think I may win $1200...haha...but I am already satisfied. The next day night, we went to play again. However it was not as smooth sailing as the previous night. We lost money at first. Then we won back as there was a very "strong" guy playing at our table. He bet on every player and won alot of money. At first I bet RM10..then slowly I increase it to 50 and then 2 players. Urica bey 50 for 2 players at one go so she won 400 plus in the end. I won 160.

We took a double decked coach back. However all of us sat on the second floor. We reached Singapore at abt 9pm.

2009-01-29T00:16:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year! It is the second day of new year but this year no celebration again as they say must wait till 5th day before going to bai nian.

2009-01-16T17:10:00.003+08:00

Today I went for the briefing for allied educator(learning and teaching). It was an MOE job and I waited for 2 months! I applied the job in last yr nov. However the pay that they offered me is $1344!

I asked around during the interview and the woman beside me had 10 yrs of experience so she got $2700. After the briefing, a guy named Mel Sun spoke to me. So I asked him abt the job. He had 6 yrs of teaching in NS as he signed a bond. He is a part time make up artist on assignment basis. And he'll be teaching makeup soon. He had a diploma in makeup and another tp diploma. He had even done makeup for some artistes too! He was offered $2400 and he wanted to start in feb as he wanted to work asap. He was from a single parent family but he is really very good in history.

He could even say out all the history randomly to me. He'll be working in Bowen Sec and I think he'll do very well from the impression he gives me. He said the interviewers were impressed by him when he asked them questions back. In all, he is really a very talented person. He's studying in SIM(RMIT) now and will be graduating on mon.

We walked all the way from tanjong pagar to raffles place and he alighted at khatib.

2009-01-11T22:49:00.003+08:00

Today is just an ordinary day for me. However thoughts went thru my mind. Recently I got a reply from MOE for the allied educator(teaching and learning) position. But they only offer me $1334 for a 3 yr contract. When I applied it was 2 yr. They said it jus increased this yr. And it is a diploma job so that's y the salary is so low.

Although there will be NIE training, I still felt that it was too low a salary! Even O-levels can get this amount. My long waited job just vanished lidat...haiz...now looking out to see if there're better jobs.

2009-01-08T22:40:00.003+08:00

Urica and her mother and Jas and I went to Beauty World Plaza to get our fortunes told. We made an appointment before going but not for me cos I think that ir's too ex...$40 per person...It is somewhere near SIM on 2nd storey. Jas' friend intro her the shop and heard that she's very accurate.

Jas asked abt her relationship and it doesn't seem too gd...the same for her career...As it is told thru 三世书, it says that in her past life she asked a monk to eat beef, so she had to treat other people to vegetarian food in this life.

For Urica, she had a very gd life. She stole clothes and bowls in her last life and so she needs to donate clothes...hehe...But in this life, she will excel in her career and will live in a private house. Her husband will be very rich too. She will have a daughter and a son.

Her mother is not bad too...will strike big money soon...lol...My cousin Wilson came too in the evening. He was a Jap in the past, that's why he likes to eat sushi...haha...and her relationship with his mother is not bad.

In all, it was quite accurate. If I have money in the future I think I will go too. They bought crystal bracelets to wear and Jas bought a pendant. Each cost abt $80.

2008-12-31T21:07:00.002+08:00

Countdown time! It is the last day of 2008! I went to the channel 8 countdown party at vivo. It was the first time channel 8 is holding an outdoor countdown. I gave 2 tics to Hx and her friend. She joined her other friends in the Ou Xuan fan club. All of the them were wearing white.

There were Soul, Yi shi jie, Li ming shun, shawn....and alot of other singers attending. It was quite ok and a live telecast. However I was not able to watch the fireworks as it was blocked by the shelter.

Overall it was ok but I felt that the atmosphere was not as fun and happening as the previous year. There seemed to be lesser people in the mrt train too as compared to last yr.

2008-12-29T21:00:00.004+08:00

I went for class gathering at orchard. As usual, only the few of us turned up. Ben,jy,huilin,siew,ps,jiayi,binglin and me! hehe... We decided for awhile where to go for dinner and finally decided on seoul garden as it was the cheapest there...keke...

However the food was not very fresh. The soup base is tasteless and the prawns are not fresh. Jy became very tanned. Ben is abit tanned too but not as tan as jy...haha...

After eating we went to drink at starbucks paragon. But only ben bought the drink as the rest was very full.

2008-12-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

There is an online shop at Bukit Panjang having sales! The shop was just beside popular. It sells those goods imported from taiwan, from bags, shawls to clothes. Some were even new arrivals! Clothes are only selling at $10 and bags $15.

I bought a dress which I think can only be worn in cold areas and a "rainie yang" shirt. Both were last pieces...haiz...but very worth it...However I cannot try or exchange them.

2008-12-23T23:06:00.003+08:00

I went to city square again with Jaron and his friend, Junjie, and my best friend, Hx. We reached there super early as we wanted to sing the morning ktv at 10am. His friend is very punctual and so we reached at abt 9.30am.

We sang till 1pm and ate the salad buffet and a main dish. I and hx in a room and the rest in another as we could sing longer that way. After the buffet, we went shopping. I felt abit of cramp while shopping and Jaron felt like vomitting...indigestion...We went to buy medicine but can only find pills. He wanted powder. After that he went to vomit everything out. However, he was still unwell so we went to mac to rest.

He slept for awhile and vomit again. But this time he was fully well. So we continue shopping. Our friends did not buy anything. We ate sushi king for dinner. The meal Jaron ordered tasted awful...like economice rice(as Jaron described)...the rest was ok.

We went home at abt 9pm. There was a traffic jam and so I reached home at abt 10 plus.

2008-12-15T23:32:00.003+08:00

I went for training at university cultural centre(UCC) as an usher from 1 to 6pm. It is somewhere near NUS and I took bus 96 from clementi. They gave us a brief overview of what we need to do and an introduction. After that, we went for a tour of the whole centre to see the surroundings.

There will be a max of 2 mths probation period and after which become an official usher. I had a bad flu for the whole day. However, Jaron instead of concerning me, he scolded me for not taking care of myself! What kind of bf is he?! When I said abt breaking up, he even agreed! He said he could not tolerate my weaknesses! In the past, blur is a plus point. But when together, blur becomes a minus point! Why is he always so heck care and I am always the one being sad? He can take our relationship so lightly that sometimes I think he does not like me anymore.

I always tolerated his short temper too...don't I give in too? Why can't he do the same? Aren't relationships abt giving in and accepting the person for who he/she is? Is it cos' our relationship is too long? Last sat, my friend told me she was back with her ex. I hope she won't get hurt again and her ex has really learnt his lesson and don't hurt her again.

Should I be like my friend and break up with Jaron? But I know he won't woo me back like my friend's ex. He will just leave...that's why I need to consider carefully...Anyway I am already very happy that we had been together once as I always thought that a person like me won't be able to have such a gd bf. Maybe I cannot meet up to his expectations....maybe I should let him go to find somebody that suits him....maybe that'll be happier for both of us...maybe....

2008-12-04T12:20:00.003+08:00

Today I went to watch movies....and before I went for the movie, I went to the toilet. As a door was not locked, I pushed open the door to go in. To my shock, there was a little girl sitting on the toilet bowl!!! I was so shocked that I faster say sorry and closed the door...haha...I think the girl was shocked too...Why the mother was not there to help her look after the door? Haiz...if I were her, I would be so embarrassed...

2008-12-03T23:43:00.003+08:00

Today baobei went to 883 for recording as he participated in a campus competition and got into finals again. He went for the recording from 10 to 11pm. He was on air for abt 3 times, 2 mins each. In the final section when the DJ asked him if there's anyone he would like to thank, he said out a few names.

My name was mixed in the middle of his friends names and he said munling instead of joyce. Is it because he did not want others to know he had a gf? I think his cousins and parents are listening that's why he dared not emphasize. He emphasized his friend instead as she called to encourage him before the recording and asked if he would say out her name. He also emphasized his family and I am the only one left out as just friends. That's why I am in a strange position when this kind of situation occurs. He could not emphasize me. If his parents and relatives know abt me, he could just say it(but not sure if he would).

Last time when he participated in 1003, his aunt, mother and grandmother came to support him in the finals. After the whole thing, we still had to act as friends in front of his parents. He did not bother abt me. They went to eat after that and he asked me if I wanted to go along. I rejected it as I did not know what position I was to eat with them. As friends? Or as gf? I even felt shy in front of them. I did not know if I should go over to greet and talk to them or just act blur as friends. As usual, he was insensitive to me.

This time his finals will be at the heerens there. Will the same situation happen again? Will I meet his parents again? This time mayb I will just watch at one corner and go off with my friend after that. In that case I will not feel awkward again.

2008-11-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

It was the first day of anime festival! It was the first time ever in Singapore! I won the tickets from buying biore at watsons. The person sent me 4 tickets instead as they had extras. There were alot of online games, comics and collectibles there. However as I was not into anime, it was an eye opener for me.

I saw alot of cosplay too and many pple were taking photos of them and interviewing them! Many "zai nan" just could not help asking cosplay girls around to take photos with them! Some cosplay pple even sat down to let them take all they want. I did not buy anything though.

Lin Junjie was there at the bookfest too for photo taking session. We went there as well as it is in suntec too...jus that different levels.

2008-11-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

I went for interview at Great Eastern Centre today. As usual, I have no confidence of getting it. Failed so many interviews recently...haiz...really have to think carefully what's wrong with me. But luckily I got into UCC as usher. I think is because few pple went for interviews...haha...

I went to the library to read classified ads for jobs. I asked a guy if I could read the papers and he told me of course as it was the same as he was reading...keke...He then started talking to me as he was looking for job too. He was 32 and named Mark Tan. He even asked me for no. so that he could inform me if he had lobangs for jobs. He was jobless for a few mths and previously doing sales. He was a diploma holder. After he went off he even invited me to eat mac with him! But I did not do so...lol...

I was wearing formal wear and specs and he thought I was 18 or 19. I really hope I can get into a job soon...wasted too much time...And...I won Cape no. 7 from festive films today! It is 7pm tml at Lido. Heard that it's very nice and popular in Taiwan, going to watch it with Yen Lin tml.

Baobei got a briefing for 883. He got into the contest for DJ again...jus tat this time he's competing against other schools. Jiayou!

2008-11-16T23:42:00.001+08:00

Sick again...have a bad flu and cough...Hope that I can faster recover to continue my job hunting!

2008-10-30T23:39:00.001+08:00

I finally found my watch which I wanted to buy! I first saw it at an online blogshop and then saw it at muee. It was a "MINI" brand korean watch selling online at $39 and muee at $39.90 to $49.90. Those with leather straps are more expensive and those with plastic are cheaper.

The stall was located inside cold storage at causeway. It is only selling at $23.90 and it is real! It has the tags and box. However the box has an additional charge of $1. I bought one of it. Actually I felt like buying another watch but resisted the temptation in the end.

I also went to causeway to collect my 3in1 eyeshadow stick from a blogshop owner. It looks quite nice and very cheap! I had been keeping a lookout for that for a long time and finally found the cheapest selling blogshop. It only cost $1.20 each if buy 2. I bought 4! The owner is a very young girl in school uniform. I think she is in sec3 or 4 lidat. Anyway today I got 2 things which I wanted to buy for a long time! SO happy!=P

2008-10-25T23:45:00.003+08:00

I went to Jurong bird park to watch sing to the dawn! It was the first singapore animation adapted from the literature book wriiten by Ho Minfong. It was also the literature book which I read about in my secondary school days.

We took some pictures first before we watched the movies and even took pictures with an eagle! The birds there are all so "professional" that we almost thought they are fake!lol...=P

The screening is at the amphitheatre. The screen is not very big and the system is quite bad. There were alot of technical faults in between. We bought chicken rice from Jurong point to eat while watching. It was very cheap...only $2. The movie only lasted for 1 hour plus but is quite nice...about the same storyline as what I had read before.

The movie was about a teenage girl named Dawan who fought for her rights to basic education.
One day, the entire village turned upside down when they need to pay taxes. Dawan's father, Somchai, wanted Dawan to tutor her brother, Kai, so that he could get a scholarship and Dawan to be married to Benz, son of landlord, Pairote. However, Dawan objected the idea and decided to get the scholarship herself so that she could go to the city to study.

Old Wichien, the village old and crazy puppeteer, told Dawan that the ownership of the land does not belong to Pairote and belongs to the villagers. So, Dawan went on a journey to find the decree with Kai and saved the village. She also realised her dreams to study in the city.

2008-10-11T23:05:00.001+08:00

Today I went to amk kbox plaza to redeem for a pair of tickets to the movie 20th century boys. There is a short queue when I reach there. There are 100 tickets to be given away so I think there are some tickets left...hehe...

When I was queueing up, I suddenly saw Daniel Goh coming out of the kbox! He came out to redeem the tics too as the pple inside told them abt the free tics. He went to find Huang Qin and Peiyi who are just queueing behind me! I was so shocked and surprised. They were queueing behind for quite some time and I did not realise it. They said that they were not sure and so did not call me too...keke...We exchanged our numbers and I went in to find Yanfang as they were celebrating her birthday.

They were all studying in NTU now and Yanfang is actually studying nursing. Daniel is studying Econmics, same as me...haha... Anyway I got 2 pairs of tics in the end as I queue another time when I came out of the kbox and the queue was almost finishing. I got 2 postcards and 2 movie tickets for each queue. They took out posters too but did not see them giving out. I think they wanted to finish giving out the postacrds first. Nxt wk it'll be the coffin movie tickets at Kallang...looking forward to it...hehe...=P

2008-10-06T14:13:00.004+08:00

Recently I cannot access my hotmail!! Haiz...dunno what happened...I have also received the bags from PG mall which I bought online a few days ago. They're quite nice...=P The first 2 bags above are from PG mall and the orange one is dear dear bought for me when he's in Hong Kong. Lastly, it's the photo of all the finalists of 1003 competition at causeway point.

2008-09-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

It's the finals of DJ hunt at causeway point! I'm so excited! Yanting was performing together with his partner, Huifen, from NTU. I heard that she's a very interesting and mass media person from Yanting. And a living jukebox too just like Yanting! hehe... She had gone to Taiwan before and taken photos with alot of my idols like Show Luo and Rainie Yang and attended alot of mass media conferences.

Some of Yanting's friends come down to support him too, including Mathew, Shun Yong and my friend, Huixian. Yanting was very touched that his friends really came down to support him. (But wad abt me?I went down too but not touched at all...)The first performance was a 3mins show. Yanting and his partner performed an OMY radio station interviewing Ruan Jing Tian(Yanting acting). It was quite humorous. After the performance of the 5 grp, Yanting's grp being the last one, they announced the top 5.

And...Yanting got into top 5!!! He's the only guy who went into top 5 and I'm so proud and happy for him! Huifen got in too. Next, they had to choose 1 question and do "on the spot" hosting. Huifen chose a Wang Lee Hom concert and got Yanting up the stage (posing as Lee Hom) and a guy called Wei Jian(acting as guest, Jay) to act. Yanting did a great job in personating as Lee Hom! He was also invited up when Jing Yi was hosting a wedding dinner. Yanting was the groom and Huifen the bride(Jing tong yu nu). They were asked to "kiss"(but juz acting). At that moment, I really felt that they're really very compatible. Yanting is good looking and Huifen not bad looking too and they share the same interests.

After the whole show, Huifen got the talent award and Jing Yi was the winner. Yanting did not get anything but I think that his overall performance is already very good. Furthermore, the DJ stressed that even though never get any awards, there's still chances of being a DJ. He took pictures with his friends after the whole thing but the one with me is super ugly(he nv even look at the camera!).But I tink he's shagged cos he looked lost and in a daze so I nv take another photo(so sad...the onli photo he nv look at the camera is me...am I so unimportant?) His ah ma, mother and aunt came too and I din noe abt it! I was so shocked to see them. I was not in gd form today, having pimples and wearing specs...OMG!!! Suddenly all my low self confidence came to me...I felt like hiding myself...

I thought to myself that if his gf today is Huifen or somebody else, things will be different. I don't have both looks and talents. I only know how to make "wa wa" sound and pple say I have a sweet voice. But wad's the use of all these? I must have made a bad impression for his aunt and ah ma!! How am I going to face them nxt time? Sld I just let him go? I think he deserves somebody better than me. Am I blocking him "tao hua"? If today I'm not together with him, will he be happier? Am I an embarrassment to him? Am I a burden to him? I dunno...suddenly feel so useless and sad...

I must change from head to toes!! I want to be more confident and change for the better. I must learn to look better and be strong in at least 1 area. I want to go travelling, make more friends, dancing and learn singing! No matter if we'll still be together after 1 or 2 more yrs(as feelings often disappears as time goes by). After wad had happened to my friend, I no longer have any confidence in relationship.(it has happened to me once too). I was afraid the same thing would happen again. If it happen again, I don't think I'll have any courage to face it anymore....

Yanting felt abit disappointed for not winning anything as he wanted very much to become a DJ. But I believe he still has chance. No matter what I'll still support him...he's already a winner in my heart...I think that he's already done his best. He's so gd that I think I'm not gd enough for him...

2008-09-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today we went to compass point! There is a FM1003 踢馆大擂台 event there recruiting new DJ. As it's always been dear's wish to be a DJ, I went there together with him for the audition and registration. There are 4 rounds. 1st, you need to self intro, 2nd u need to choose a situation which you need to solve, 3rd u need to choose a topic and talk abt it in front of a camera and lastly, ur talent. Dear dear said abt the programme Ken is hosting. He said the road broadcasting of the cars in the causeway shld be every hr. He did a good job and got in the the semi-finals! I was so happy for him but his friend did not get in. There'll be another audition in Northpt nxt sat.

2008-09-04T00:48:00.003+08:00

I got my results on Tues(2 Sep)! As I was having tuition on that day, I only checked and know my results at night. I was quite worried when I knew that results was out from my friend. I was having tuition then and I decided to look at it after all my tuition so that it'll not affect my tuition. In the end, I got third class honours! Most of my friends got a pass. It was quite ok for me although I failed game theory and optimisation theory(condoned). Actually I aimed for 2nd but overall I am still satisfied. I finally graduated!!! =P

Just an addition to the event that happened on Mon(1 Sep) (forgot to write last time): I saw a person who looked like Min Hao on the train an my way to PS. However he did not see or recognise me as he was standing and sleeping. He was wearing a polo shirt and jeans. When I was alighting, I even stood in front of him but he did not call me. So I did not dare to call him too just in case I recognise the wrong person.

2008-09-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

Monday again! Time to redeem for free movie tickets with UOB NOW card! (it's written in tues as it's already passed 12am) As usual, I overslept again. Luckily Huixian woke me up but she went with her sister as I would be very late. Dear dear overslept too. We watched Meet Dave. Huixian and her sis watched 10.30am while dear dear and I watched 12.20pm. At first we thought we would not be able to redeem it as Huixian already no. 45 and today is the start of 1 wk hols. But in the end dunno why I ended up being no. 15...haha...

Meet Dave is quite a funny show. It is saying abt Dave(a robot/spaceship in the form of human) who came from another planet. He knew nothing abt the earth and find everything strange. Later he started to learn and adapt the lifestyles if humans by staying together with a small boy and his mother. Dave knew the mother by coincidence of a car accident. The mission of Dave is to use a "magnet ball" to get the water on earth to save their own planet, thereby destroying earth. In the end, the captain began to like the earth and decided not to destroy but another leader disagreed. The other leader later forced to become a captain and became violent and destructive. The police went after him. In the end, the original captain took control again but could not go back as all energy used up. The small boy helped him by giving him electricity and left in a shoe. Overall, not bad...hehe...

Later in the evening, I went to causeway and pasar malam for awhile. I saw an ambulance pushing a man in. I think it should be the hand injury as his hand is covered up.

2008-09-01T00:04:00.004+08:00

(Shld be sun cos' I editted it tat's y it became mon) Wkend again! But this wkend seems so scary for me! Cause' I will be knowing my results nxt wk...really hope everything will be alright. (OS:神啊，帮帮我吧！) It is the opening ceremony of the crocs outlet at PS today. I went there at abt 12.15pm. They're having their opening ceremony at noon and giving out mystery gift for the 1st 100 customers. So, dear dear and I decided to go there to see what the mystery gift is...as usual...haha... There is a lion dance when I reached there but I did not watch it and went to queue just in case it is more than 100. After abt 5 to 10 mins, we were allowed into the shop! We got something like a shoes accessory. Alot of "panda" designs shoes accesories. Better than what I thought although dear dear expect a pair of shoes...hehe... Crocs have a new series of shoes and bags. More varieties. All of them have "holes" for you to put the shoes accessories! However we did not buy anything as they're quite expensive...54 onwards and children ones are nicer...keke...

Just as we stepped out of PS,a group of red cross girls approached us for donations to NUH. I saw them being so enthusiastic so I donated $1 and dear dear donated 20 cents. They gave us 2 green bands. At first I though nothing of it but when dear dear said he only donated 20 cents, I realised I donated too much. But nvm, the girls were super happy when we donated. Heard their excitement...think they're the 1st time doing this...keke...at least we made them happy.

After that, we went to parkway parade. We took bus 14 from outside PS so we need to walk some distance after alighting. There are alot of cars when we passed somewhere near suntec cos' of Comex so we did not go to Comex. Moreover we have nothing to buy.It was raining on our way there but luckily it did not rain when we reached there. When we alight, we walked past a stretch of food stalls. All looked delicious and special! We kept walking and finally decided to stop at a shop named "蓬莱阁" to eat. It specially sells taiwan food and the door is unique...push sideway to go in. It originally had a shop at bugis too but closed down. We ate 炸酱面，濡肉饭(dunno correct anot) and 波霸奶茶(which is milk tea). All are very different from other places! Really "imported" from Taiwan...lol... The 2 bosses are all very friendly. Chats with almost all the customers! We knew that their family has been doing food business for generations by chatting with them. That's why they can offer such a wide variety of food. They came here as their children are studying here. Dear dear is interested in franchising and so asked abit abt that. The lady boss said if the person is willing to learn and a good location they're willing to do so. In the past, a person did not put effort and the food was awful. In the end they stopped him from selling. We were chatting with her very happily when suddenly just as we left, we saw her putting a bad face. We dunno what had happened. Isit she don't like dear dear or we made her think abt her bad experience? The whole meal cost abt $20 for 2 persons...quite ok...

After eating, we finally went to parkway parade. However it's already 4pm and dear dear needs to work at 5pm. We went to a shophouse there and I bought a pair of shoes(low cut boots) for just $10 at crazy shoes. It is very nice and I like it alot. We also went to the gramophone at parkway. After that, dear dear went to work and I walked around myself. When I walked towards the pushcart of dead sea co, a caucasian or german(not sure) approached me. He told me his friend is a gay. He is going for a party today and has to bring a gf. As his mother do not know he's a gay, he needs to find somebody to accompany him and asks me if I'm free to do so. I was totally shocked as this is the first time I had such an experience. I jus lied to him and said I had something to reject him. Luckily he did not do anything and allowed me to go off...hehe... I went home soon after that taking bus 966. Dear dear was late for work as there's a traffic jam.

When I reached causeway point, I went to help my brother buy files for school purposes with my mother and youngest brother. Then we went to eat KFC zinger buddy meal, buy milk and then went home.

Below is a song by elva which I like alot. Listened to this song on my way home and had alot of feelings with the lyrics. They're so meaningful! Exactly the same words which described how I once felt in my life...

换季前夕的阵雨
像远行前依依不舍最后巡礼
没能一起看成的那部
在重播的深夜让我想起你
答应自己没有你也要努力过下去
变成友谊的爱情
藏在心里忘了时间还继续前进
从没刻意对你的消息回避
朋友还是礼貌的只字不提
她属于你我之后的爱情
我之后的你在她的爱里
真的确定过去都已过去
你之后的我比较爱自己
也决心一个人练习不那么想你
难以解释的心情
下次遇见在同一条街上也许
你已不在意介绍新的恋情
听你说再次见面感觉温馨
只怕你发现还没有人走进我生命
终于确定过去都已过去
偶尔想你也未必是不可理喻
有些困难的事情等时间处理
我渐渐听见了心里的声音
原来真正的幸福那么容易
懂得了祝福只要你爱得再也不犹豫
陪回忆写完了日记
告诉自己停止再想你
我之后的你终于确定过去都已过去
你之后的我懂得爱自己
让回忆不留痕迹
我会自己停止再想你

2008-08-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

It is an unlucky day for me today. I almost slipped and fell down when I was walking to my tuition place. Before that, I went to the national dental centre at 8.45am. The dentist did a check up on my gums and did a clean up. The dentist said I need to floss my teeth as it should not bleed when scaling. If it happened, then it means there's abit of inflammation. Now I am scared again. Must take good care of my teeth as I spent alot of effort on them and I don't want anything to happen to them again...hehe...so must buy floss soon! On my way to my tuition place at amk, I thought of the phrase below. The drama "命中注定我爱你" which just ended last wkend gave me the intuition. Hope they're ok...keke...

相遇是缘份
相识是巧合
但如果。。。
相伴永远的话，那就是命中注定！

2008-08-14T00:18:00.004+08:00

Today my photo is published in mypaper! Oops...shld be yest le.. It is regarding a movie which I watched on Mon night, 12 lotus. I was approached by a Straits times reporter while dear dear was collecting tickets and talking to the 933 "friend" whom he knew from his everytime winning. Haha... 2 of his friends came to watch with us too, Mathew and a very tall Chinese teacher，Kelvin,Mathew's friend. The ST reporter asked for our names and contact numbers as she wants to call us and ask some questions. She even took photographs of dear dear with the movie tickets first then me. Then we went in for the movie abt 7 or 7 plus like that. The movie was very touching. It is regarding a girl called "Lian Hua" who had a very sad life. She was beaten badly by her father when she was young when she sang badly. Then when she grew up, she gave all the money that she earned to the father. Her father even agreed her to go and sing "getai" with a guy just for money(as he likes to gamble). When her father died in a car accident, the guy(acted by Qi Yu WU) started to betray her and lied to her for money. He let the others raped her and from then on "Lian Hua" became mentally unsound. Her brother, "Xiao Fei Xia", helped to take care of her and she became fat and never went out of house. She always believed in "Guan Ying" and even took it for salon! In the end, the guy(Qi Yu Wu) came back to her and wanted to steal her heirloom necklace to settle debts. "Lian Hua" struggled till her mouth bleed as she ate the necklace. The show just ended like that. The ST reporter only called the the next day morning. Asked about how we think about the movie and how we think abt the collaboration between ST and 12 lotus. We had an enjoyable day!!=P

2008-07-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

Today I just came back from Genting. Lost RM100!! So sad...I went there on fri (25/8) nite and came back today at abt 9pm. As it was late when we reached there, we just sleep and gamble the nxt day. I slept in a VIP room while my uncle and parents slp in normal rooms. The VIP was different in the sense that it had a bathtub and sofa and the TV was bigger. However, I had a terrible experience there. On Sat, I went to play "Ban Luck" with my cousin, Urica. It was the first time I was playing tables as I played jackpot last time. This time I played a jackpot named "Egypt" and won RM20. It was a "good" machine.We changed some tokens and played tables too. We followed others to bet and we bet RM10 at one time. I saw a person adding tokens in the mid of the game and I asked my cousin if it's ok to do so and she said yes. Thus, in the midway of some game, I placed a bet and I got scolded!!! It was because I did not bet in the first place so I was not supposed to add double bet for "11 pts"!! My cousin thought I knew. An uncle there scolded me like hell and kept talking abt it to others!! They were talking in cantonese and I was so embarrassed. But they knew I was a beginner and stopped except for the uncle! After playing for awhile more, we changed to other tables. We played "Big or Small" too and that was alot more easier. We did some shopping too. I bought a cap for abt 22 and hp straps at a "rice" shop. At the shop, you can DIY ur name into the rice and become a bracelet, necklace or earrings. As we were going home, I sat in my cousin's parents car. We sped at the expressway(140km/h) and luckily the police did not stop us as they were busy handling other cars.

2008-07-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hihi...finally able to write a new posting after almost a year!Today I was very angry with my boyfriend for not fulfilling his promises. He said that he can spend the whole day today with me after I hinted him that we had not met for a long time. However he kept dragging till afternoon and even thought of just meeting me at night! I know he is reluctant as he had to give up his slots and says he has tests nxt wk. However, I have given him sat to study but he chose to work! Then he blamed me for not giving him time to study. Am I wrong? I just wanted to spend and meet him 1 day out of 1 week! In the end we meet at the library at civics centre in the afternoon. He went to study while I read my own stuffs there. After that, we went to the 933 bao chang hui at IMM garden plaza. As my boyfriend knows Andy from 933(due to him winning many times...haha), he gave him 2 past issues of i weekly and 2 VIP passes! We stood right in front of the stage! There are many people performing that day. For eg, there are energy,milk,Liu Li Yang,Yoga,Lin Yu Zhong and Lin JunJie. The DJs are Li Yi and Zhi Yong. It was a very "high" performance. My boyfriend even caught milk's poster and shake his hand! I only managed to shake Li Yang's hand and he did too. Actually I won milk's dance class today but I did not go as I was afraid to dance in front of milk! Was abit regretful after that. His dance is really powerful. In all, we had a great day! All my anger was gone by the end of the day.=P

2007-05-23T11:24:00.000+08:00

Wah...so long nv write my blog liao...cos very busy now then free...when my hols then I will write more often...hehe...I jus went to Shugar today to do my nails!!It was a great experience and I was very happy to be chosen to have a free nail makeover!It was a collaboration of teens with Shugar so it'll be posted in nxt mth's teens...so excited!!!But dun think it looks nice...think clara and lileng look more photogenic...keke...They are new frenz I made at the studio there...It was great knowing them however lileng took the wrong nails.I ended up taking her nails instead but we'll exchange back when it drops.She jus told the person to zhi you fa hui so tot tat mine is hers as it's abt the same as wad she req but I know it's wrong as I wanted butterflies.It did not fit my fingers but overall quite nice.There was another surprise for me when I found out that 1 of the 4 bosses of shugar is actually my pri sch fren,Bertram!Oh my god...he's changed so much!!much metrosexual!lol...did not expect him to be a boss so young.He graduated from TP and dunno y he exempted frm NS.He told me he already find my name familiar and know it's me when see my photo.But he kept quiet and onli told me at the studio!I was late for the thing and asked my dad to drive me to tiong bahru mrt to wait for my bf.But we ended up quarelling as he is reluctant to come and it's raining.If I knew this would happen,I will not ask him to come.Luckily I was nt the last to reach.Jus after Lileng and her fren,Sally.At the studio,we're supposed to take half body pictures with postures of nails.Clara did it very well...near perfect!Lileng still ok...look sunny...I am the worst.All the pple had to come teach me and how to post...I was too nervous.There is a metrosexual guy hairstylist there who helped me do abit of touchup and hair design as I had no time to do it. The other 2 gals are still ok so they do their nails 1st.Clara did it in the morning at the bugis shugar b4 coming and met Bertram so came down together.We took alot of pictures and they'll choose the nicest frm there.They wanted to do something like the Jap magazine.Pictures of the hands are also taken.My bf waited till the end outside as he did not want to come in.He went sch after tat but he's still pissed.I walked to the mrt station with the new frenz I made.We're supposed to write a comment and send to Bertram.While we're walking to the mrt,somebody blew a whistle at clara..haha...cos she very pretty.We each gt some shugar vouchers too and can go back to the shop if anything drops out.I and lileng used nail glue so we had to wear it till it drops.Clara is cleverer...use stickers...keke...Anyway it's realli a great experience and we enjoyed it.I think this kind of chance is realli rare to come by and I realli hope the photos will come out well.So stay tuned to nxt mth's teens...hehe...=P

2006-11-18T11:41:00.000+08:00

Wah...Long time nv write my blog liao...hehe...Haiz...recently a lot of things haf happened I oso dunno where to start. Firstly, my bf and I have won alot of free stuffs so now busy using them up before they expire at the end of this mth. Furthermore, some of my frenz r having their birthdays and I need to buy them presents so abit no money as I haf stopped tuition too. I am so busy with my sch work now. HAiz...bu zhi bu jue 6mths haf passed and exams are coming!! Suddenly feel the stress...I muz gambatte!! 2006 is coming to an end soon and I am going to be 21 soon!!sob...But it oso means christmas is coming...now everywhere oso gt nice nice decoratons so sometimes it will brighten my day too..keke...hao ba...tats all for today though today's entry is abit more general.=P

2006-09-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today is a tiring day for me as I am out the whole day. I go for lessons in the morning and then go for shopping with my friends Ming siew,shan and yingjie. It has been raining for almost the whole day for today and these few days. It did spoil our plan today abit. Firstly, the lecturer for linear algebra was talking to himself!! I totally did not know wad he is toking abt. After sch, I took the mrt to orchard as it is raining. Although I was late, I was still the 1st to reach! The topic for for girls' talk today is ms and yk and hl too. I finally confirmed that they r nt together and hl is angry wif me for nt asking her out which means I dun wan her to go. But tat was not wad I meant. I tot shan has already asked her! Haiz...anyway tats nt the 1st time le so nvm... We went shopping the whole day and we each bought a shirt which can change colour under UV light imported frm korean. It is bery special. After yj went home, we went to u.r.s to buy shoes. We buy one each again. It has been a long time since we went out to haf a great time shopping! Although all of us spend till vomit blood, we still enjoyed ourselves. Sisters foreva!!!=P

2006-08-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

yEAH!!sunshine after rain...I ended up nv breaking up wif my bf...another obstacle overcomed.. but I think that we will still haf alot of other obstacles ahead. Feel so tired now and hope that I can slp for 10 yrs but still remain at this age. Now I am in my office feeling so sian...HELP ME!!!!

2006-07-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

Finally coming to my third entry which is the sadest day. I am making a decision which will affect my entire life. Dear has been cold towards me since he started his project and till now it has not ended. I have given him many chances but he still did not change for the better. He seems like he dun love me anymore and even dun haf the urge to meet me!! I have tried to break with him many times but I juz dun haf the courage. How I wish there is a guardian angel beside me now to guide and protect me. I am very sad but I think that love cannot be forced. If it has realli come to a point to let go I will do so de. I believe that a world without love can also be a great world. However, I still wish all the couples in this world a happy ending!=P

2006-07-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

Yo...finally writing my nxt entry le. Guess wad...I am in the office now! Haha...no choice...brother using the com at home whole day so haf to write in the office. Later I am going to Hong Jun Yang mini concert at the esplanade!!Yeah...but mayb goin to eat first but muz budget la...no choice...
Anyway, finally meeting dear dear today. So long nv see him cos he gt project to do. Ok la...jus write till here for the moment. Will continue tonight if I have the time. Hehe..=P

2006-07-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

hey hey...finally writing my first entry. Firstly, I want to thank my students sandy and gabrielle for helping me to set up this blog. Xie xie..gan dong ma?Hehe... Today is the last day for my supervisor as he is going for reservice in Thailand. Haiz...frm tml onwards I will change my supervisor in uob call centre le..but....luckily my new TL is not too bad too. I will miss the cold jokes that Johann say and no more "daddy" to help us deal with those"good" cx anymore. I also forget to put myself at works when asking Johann regarding some qns today and my phone rings!! All the pple sitting near my desk keep asking somebody to help pick up my calls and Fatimah help me ans twice!!Thx! I am sooo embarrassed and I think that 'somebody' will backstab me again. Lastly, I want to wish Johann a happy 'vacation' and get back in one piece wohz..we will all grow up by the time u come back and not babies anymore...keke...take care!