Today Yixun had something to tell me. He wanted to tell me before work starts. However I was late. So he did not tell me anything till case cut. Ivy had something on at home so she took half day off in the afternoon. Wei Hong came to help too but half day here too.

I knows what he wants to tell me and I know that I could not avoid it. He will tell me sooner or later. I do not want to hurt him as I know that he had been hurt previously and he was very sad. He said he remembered very clearly as he had a good memory. He took abt half a yr to recover! And he is a person who do extreme things. How am I to tell him that I only regard him as bro? I do not want him to go back to the past and say "Love is a weapon of mass destruction"! I do not want to hurt him nor do I want anybody to be sad cos of me! Furthermore if I can accept him, why I cannot accept Youquan in the past? He is very gd too and I had feelings for him too. But I was afraid there'll be alot of prob for us due to age(smaller by 3 yrs too) and decided to let him go. I know he's very sad and he sacrificed alot for me, talking on the phone everyday(so bill burst) and scolded by parents. Haiz...suddenly memories keep coming back...hope he's doing fine and has found a girl 100 times or more better than me! Jiayou Youquan! I will be here 默默为你加油!!

When case cut, Meng siang came into dark room to tell me abt him and Ivy. He was sad that he and Ivy bacame lidat. He does not know if he should hang on or let go. I told him to give it a last try. If really cannot then let go. After that, Yixun came in and talked to me. He asked me if I knew he likes me. I feigned ignorance and said I tot it is all rumours. He said is all true and asked if I can be his gf. I do not know what to reply him so I said to consider. I continued to say I am not a gd gf and I am older than him. He said it's ok as his parents do not mind and he said I m nice and cute. Then I asked again y he do not like Ivy as normally pple will like her. He said he dunno y but just like. I continued to tell him abt the things that he should change like his eating style. We spent abt 30 to 45 mins talking lidat ba.

Today during work, Yixun wrote a Malay phrase. I do not wad it means. But then Ivy says he very daring and he explains to me after that. It means "I like this girl". I was too shocked for words. Then he changed the like to "sayang" which I dunno wad it means. But I think it shld be worse than like ba..haha...

Btw I meet Darren for dinner! SO long nv see him le!! We went to Isetan at lido there for Hello Panda fair. But when we reached there, it just closes! After that, we went to Yixun's mother shop upstairs. Her mother is English educated and very friendly. His uncle knows chinese medicine and help me to see. He says my nails are very thin and not enough "qi".

He helps Meng Siang to massage his hand as he asked him why his nails are black. Meng Siang is in pain for a period of time. Yixun's brother is very cute and looks like Yixun! Very active and likes to "twist".

Then Darren and I went to far east plaza to eat noodles. He treat me.

Older by 1 yr again...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!





Dun kill me kor kor....





Group photo!




204 gathering! We went to orchard again. Jun Yuan, Ben, Hui Lin, Peishan, Ming Siew, Yingjie, Yuankai, Jiayi, Binglin came. We knew that Hui Lin and Ben broke up due to different personalities and many other problems. They broke up 1st April! Huilin had test the following wk!

Ben changed. He smoked and even smoked the whole packet per day! He even had a left earhole. We went to breeks to eat. The ice cream was 1-for-1 and very big! They bought a cake to celebrate my birthday, from Bakerzia! I was so touched...din expect them to still celebrate it after so long! After that, all went home.

Peishan, Huilin, Ben and I went to clarke quay to continue drinking. We went Eski bar! The one which I wanted to go in the past! We ordered Eski Blue and some other alcoholic drinks. It was the first time I felt dizzy after drinking.It costs abt $244! Peishan and I shared a cab home, abt $30.

Today Moses asked me for my hp no. He was very sad recently as he just broke up with his gf. He said that he had no one to talk to tat's y he took my hp no. I gave him my email @ too. Everybody said he was a hypocrite with 2 personalities but I think he's harmless, at least to me. Instead, I find him pitiful as he seemed to have no frenz. His ord chalet is even cancelled as nobody wanted to go! He had to pay as he had already booked the chalet. However, he was very gd in shooting! He went into the next stage at suntec for arrow shooting!

Today I fell down! Ivy was rushing for time to watch movies so we took cab from NUS to Jurong east. I fell when my foot twisted and landed sitting on soil with rocks. So I was cut on the leg by the stones. Han Yang was also obviously wooing Ivy by looking at the msg. I think Ivy should tell them she has bf and dun let them have the wrong impression if she thinks that the person won't have any chances. Cos' if it was me I will not want to waste other pple's time too if I don't like that person. He can use that time to find other pple instead of wasting time on me.

When I just reached MMI with Edwin and Ivy, I saw a guy fell down in front of me. One of his legs broke the stone drain and went in! Everybody including me helped him up since he was directly in front of me.

When I was walking home in the big rain, I saw a guy almost fell cos' of slippery floor at my house downstairs.

I have my second welcome back gift. A guy named Min Jie said I was cute and wanted my facebook! At first I thought it was Ivy as it was Ivy who did the AS-OCT for him. He was a guy with an ah beng look. He was a fanciful ah beng cap with tattoos on hand. He msg to project phone and asked if I was Joyce.

I thought he recognised the wrong person as I did not really notice or see him. I just walked past him! So I gave Ivy the phone to reply him. However, Ivy asked him if he was looking for the one in strips or the one who did the AS-OCT for him. He said it was me but it seems unbelievable although Ivy said he could not make it.

Missing this VERY SCARY mini roller coaster!




I am finally back from Taiwan! I miss Taiwan!!! It is the first day of work since I came back and Ivy told me some things happened while I was away. Kar Beng became friends with her when Jesslin and her have conflicts. Jesslin is angry when Ivy just asked her something and she misinterpreted it and thought Ivy was putting words into her mouth. Moses pretended to talk to Ivy but he talked bad abt her at the back. He backstabbed other NS guys before too...like E-noch.

Ivy seems to like Kar Beng and he seemed to be more mature and "bad" as we see him. He talked differently in msg. Same for Han Yang. Yixun was playing darts for the whole day. Just as Ivy and I were digging papers for the next day, Yixun suddenly flew the dart past Ivy and hit my forehead! It flew past Ivy's face. Ivy scolded Yixun and Victor heard it. Ivy used alcohol as antiseptic and it was abit bleeding. Yixun later said sorry to me but I was not angry with him. I just hope that he'll not be emo and always think of committing suicide. Haiz...I think he should not brood over a girl and should move on!! There are alot of other good girls outside!! Jiayou!

The beach there is so different and the ROCK is super nice!!I am near the PACIFIC OCEAN!!!=P






So windy!!





sunset at yu ren ma tou...





The well-known queen's head







Nice lovers' bridge!Very romantic!

I came back to Singapore from Taiwan at 12am. Below are my Taiwan trip details!

Day 1
Go to 星光三越 and 渔人码头 see sunrise and sunset. There was a bridge there at yu ren ma tou called qing ren qiao. It was very nice at night with purple light and very romantic!

Day 2
Go to Tai Ru Ge mountain to climb and look at pacific ocean.
We go on a 1 day tour in a cab. The person who took us around was super friendly!
We went to Hualien too!

Day 3
Went to Taipei 101,Ximending and Shilin. Din do much. We did not go up 101 as it was too ex. It was actually a working building.

Day 4
Go to Ri Yue Tan (sun moon lake) and Tai Zhong.

Day 5
Went on a 1 day tour again. Go Jiufen, Yehliu and Keelung night market.
All are up the hills! Jiufen is something like street stalls in the hills.
We went to fly Tian deng too!

Day 6
We stayed at Taipei. Went to 五份铺 and Raohe night market.

Day 7
Shifted our service apartment to homestay near shilin night market.
Shan and Yixian went Gao Xiong by Gao Tie to fing Shan's cousin to bring them around.
Me and Esther stayed in Taipei as it was too ex!(fri considered wkends over there!)
We went shopping at Zhongshan and Taipei main station. Drink the famous coffee at 85 degrees cafe.

Day 8
Went 六福村, a theme park.
We only managed to go 2 themes(1 is palace) and there were many themes there! Need abt 6 hrs to finish all!
We sit water splash, boat riding by the stream,360 degrees turn, train ride thru a scarry and adventurous tunnel, theatre(like omni theatre), see scenery ride anda mini roller coaster with the seats moving 360 degrees.

It is my birthday today! However I was sick...flu...I went to work alone as Ivy needs to meet Adecco agent for philips shaver showgirl job. Every wkend 1-9pm @ $9/hr. She came abt 10 plus.

During lunch, I did not eat with Ivy as she said she's eating with her mum. I bought food back to eat at the station...burger...At abt 1pm, Ivy came back. She said there's a meeting at "the box", so Renda and I went there. I was shocked when I went in!! Everybody sang birthday song! I was so touched!! Ivy and Victor went to buy cake during lunch! They gave me a card and flower too!

When we go to DSO, Ying Ying wished me Happy Birthday. I was shocked too as I do not know that she knew abt it. Ivy told her. Then Frederick called me out in a fierce manner. I thought he was going to scold me. Then, Ying Ying suddenly sang birthday song! I was so shocked! She gave me a present too!

This is the year that I have the most surprises and shocks. But I am very happy!! I thought nobody would know...thanks everybody!

There is a big spider at cmpb today! Xing Cai and Renda saw it when they were eating in the box. It was a big brown spider with smaill head and big body. However when we wanted to go take a look, it disappeared as somebody scared it off. It was so huge that somebody had to use the big round container which we usually use to contain biscuits to capture it! It was roughly the size of the cap. Too bad it ran away and I did not get the chance to see it....haiz...

Today everybody at CMPB was curious to find out who bought Ivy and me oreo cuppuccino. They suspect Yixun, Kah Beng and wenjie. They "interrogated" Yixun first and asked him who he'll chosse between Ivy and me. He chose me as he said Ivy smokes and so lung is polluted(diaoz). Thus they continued to ask him who he'll choose if Ivy does not smoke. His answer is the same. Then when Jaya said that I have degree and he does not have, he said he have degree(specs) too...we laugh till "peng"...haha...

In the end, Edwin and Jaya found out that it was actually Raj himself who bought it.

During work, Yixun suddenly became emotional and wrote a few words:"LOVE IS CLASSIFIED A WEAPON OF MASS DESTUCTION". They said that he always write these few words and he seemed emotional. It looks like he's just fallen out of love. He said that things that should not happened has happened but refused to say what is it.

Then Wenjie tried to console him. Good words came out and we were surprised! He said:
L-love of sorrow
O-ocean of tears
V-valley of death
E-end of life
It did make some sense!

Graduation bear...





Me with Prof Phip...WOW!!!





YEAH!!Graduated!Our class...






Me and my cousin...





Me,Fion and Sharon!





Graduation day!!! I finally have my graduation ceremony after waiting for abt 1 yr! I took half day leave to go for the graduation. I took my robe with me to work and wore white blouse and black skirt. I left cmpb at abt 11.45am but there was alot of pple today. Luckily Wei Hong would be there to help Ivy.

I was the first to reach there so I saw the previous group of graduates. Lovell was there too with his gf, Xiaohui. He called me and so we took photos together. After that we went to register at the hall and waited for Kaijun. When she came, we went into one of the LTs to wear our robe. There were pple from serangoon broadway to help us wear the robes.

After that, we took some photos and proceed to the hall. As I got third class honours, I was separated from Yanling and Kaijun. However, I had the chance to talk to Kenny and Kristel. They were in my class too but seldom had chance to talk to them! Kenny is an Indonesian and studied in HK after SIM and graduating soon. Kristel had second lower and was working in mindef, same as me, research.

After the ceremony, we went to have tea reception and took photos! We took with Prof Phil as he wore scottish skirt! So cool!! I also took with Darren...so long nv see him and he is graduating this year! Then we had class photo too with Tianlai they all. We oso took a video which showed all of us throwing our "hats"! We graduated!!=P

It was raining very heavily today! But as usual, the company bus just dropped me at nuh staff canteen. Thus I need to take out my umbrella. As Wei Hong needs to do his presentation today, I did not go to work with him. He is driving and is a new car...haha..

He reached earlier than me and we went into 11th floor and played games! They are launching tml so we are testing it out. We fight against each other for 2 rounds till lunch break and he went for presentation. He was selected by his school to participate in symphony. Each sch only 1 person! So altogether abt 11 person. But 1 person back out.

He came back abt 3 plus and helped to guide the people who came for interview to become my partner! There are 2 china girls but I think they are not selected. I think they're selecting a pretty girl, cos' when I was going home, I met Frederick, Ying ying and Sheng Tong and they were discussing who were more pretty and who to select.

It makes me more convinced that being pretty is advantageous! Too bad I am still far from it...haiz...Wei Hong asked his parents to drive his car back after his presentation at TP so I took bus 95 with him after work.

Ying ying's father was admitted into nuh last fri due to heart attack. He just undergone an operation and had some morphine. In all, it was an ok day but I do not know why I was not as cheerful as the previous days...has my enthusiasm faded off? Or mayb just that there's nothing for me to be happy abt today...

Today is the fourth day of my work and I am writing this posting in my office now...hehe... Everything has been going smoothly till now.My supervisor Frederick even said he wanted to convert me to contract as they think that my salary is too low($9/hr). However, they cannot increase further as I am only a temp. Thus, they actually outsourced an agency.

I will receive abt $2000/mth after conversion. If I am good, the pay may increase by max $400 after 6 mths...I was so happy!!! From just a temp job becomes a good job! I can don't need to fred over job for 1 yr 3 mths!

These few days I have been clearing and cleaning up vision lab. However, we are giving up vision lab 4 so we need to clear everything out. I also did some templates for the forms the NS need to fill in. And... I don't need to work tml and I am paid!! So happy!! Keke...cos the perm staffs have some outdoor event.

I also knew a guy called Tay Wei Hong. He is working temp till abt June or July when he go NS. He is a very clever guy with GPA of 3.8! From TP...biotech...gd in science but bad in maths...but I think overall still gd...

I went to work with him on the 2nd day so that I know where is the shuttle bus. There is a company bus to DSO from 7.45am to 8.15am, 15 mins interval. He even read mag like American scientist(imported) and read story books during free time. And...he did not want to declare he has spine prob as he do not want to slack in army. He self studied computer and he seemed quite good at it! He knows how to take out the parts. He has a younger bro and sister but he does housework too. He got his results yest and he got the highest rank! Really very bright student...!

I received news that I got into indoor stadium! All thanks to darling(he recommended us). I think both his frenz got in too...hehe... However I still did not receive any news from DSO. Haiz...dunno when they will let me start...I am so bored!!! Somebody from international sos called me today for a phone interview. It is quite gd and somemore it is a perm job. Just that it is shift work.

I also received news that I need to hand in my research for Ho CHi Minh tml! And I still had alot to do...thus I think I will only get very little money.(If finish everything $160) But it is very tiring so I just sent it over for them to finish. I received my parcel for UOL cert today too...=P

At the Siglap pizza hut with dear dear




Happy Valentines Day! Today I went to Tampines with baobei and then go Siglap to eat pizza hut. It was the first time I went to Siglap. It was very special as shops and houses were together, abit like Holland village.

We wanted to eat a restaurant named 惠 there but as it was v'day, they took away all the menus except for the special set. Thus we had to come out after sitting down. We ate the couple meal at pizza hut. A hiphop guy named Farazi was the host there. He was very gd in introducing and serving. There was Gelare and Hong Kong cafe too which open 24hrs on fri,sat and sun.

Me and my cousin in hotel!





Trying out clothes at Mango...





Our WINNINGS!!!





The cap which I bought at Genting!




I just came back from Genting. I went there from wed till today. I went with urica and her parents. My father and ah ma went there too. We took a coach to Genting and we saw a van overturned on our way up the hill. We reached abt 1pm but they were having break. So we could only wait till 3pm for check in. We went to eat at a restaurant named Hainan.I ate their toast and it seemed not bad. After checking in we slept and rested till dinner time.

At night, we went to play at casino at night. I played big small and won $600. I only bet $25 per game. If I bet bigger think I may win $1200...haha...but I am already satisfied. The next day night, we went to play again. However it was not as smooth sailing as the previous night. We lost money at first. Then we won back as there was a very "strong" guy playing at our table. He bet on every player and won alot of money. At first I bet RM10..then slowly I increase it to 50 and then 2 players. Urica bey 50 for 2 players at one go so she won 400 plus in the end. I won 160.

We took a double decked coach back. However all of us sat on the second floor. We reached Singapore at abt 9pm.

Happy New Year! It is the second day of new year but this year no celebration again as they say must wait till 5th day before going to bai nian.

Today I went for the briefing for allied educator(learning and teaching). It was an MOE job and I waited for 2 months! I applied the job in last yr nov. However the pay that they offered me is $1344!

I asked around during the interview and the woman beside me had 10 yrs of experience so she got $2700. After the briefing, a guy named Mel Sun spoke to me. So I asked him abt the job. He had 6 yrs of teaching in NS as he signed a bond. He is a part time make up artist on assignment basis. And he'll be teaching makeup soon. He had a diploma in makeup and another tp diploma. He had even done makeup for some artistes too! He was offered $2400 and he wanted to start in feb as he wanted to work asap. He was from a single parent family but he is really very good in history.

He could even say out all the history randomly to me. He'll be working in Bowen Sec and I think he'll do very well from the impression he gives me. He said the interviewers were impressed by him when he asked them questions back. In all, he is really a very talented person. He's studying in SIM(RMIT) now and will be graduating on mon.

We walked all the way from tanjong pagar to raffles place and he alighted at khatib.