It's the finals of DJ hunt at causeway point! I'm so excited! Yanting was performing together with his partner, Huifen, from NTU. I heard that she's a very interesting and mass media person from Yanting. And a living jukebox too just like Yanting! hehe... She had gone to Taiwan before and taken photos with alot of my idols like Show Luo and Rainie Yang and attended alot of mass media conferences.

Some of Yanting's friends come down to support him too, including Mathew, Shun Yong and my friend, Huixian. Yanting was very touched that his friends really came down to support him. (But wad abt me?I went down too but not touched at all...)The first performance was a 3mins show. Yanting and his partner performed an OMY radio station interviewing Ruan Jing Tian(Yanting acting). It was quite humorous. After the performance of the 5 grp, Yanting's grp being the last one, they announced the top 5.

And...Yanting got into top 5!!! He's the only guy who went into top 5 and I'm so proud and happy for him! Huifen got in too. Next, they had to choose 1 question and do "on the spot" hosting. Huifen chose a Wang Lee Hom concert and got Yanting up the stage (posing as Lee Hom) and a guy called Wei Jian(acting as guest, Jay) to act. Yanting did a great job in personating as Lee Hom! He was also invited up when Jing Yi was hosting a wedding dinner. Yanting was the groom and Huifen the bride(Jing tong yu nu). They were asked to "kiss"(but juz acting). At that moment, I really felt that they're really very compatible. Yanting is good looking and Huifen not bad looking too and they share the same interests.

After the whole show, Huifen got the talent award and Jing Yi was the winner. Yanting did not get anything but I think that his overall performance is already very good. Furthermore, the DJ stressed that even though never get any awards, there's still chances of being a DJ. He took pictures with his friends after the whole thing but the one with me is super ugly(he nv even look at the camera!).But I tink he's shagged cos he looked lost and in a daze so I nv take another photo(so sad...the onli photo he nv look at the camera is me...am I so unimportant?) His ah ma, mother and aunt came too and I din noe abt it! I was so shocked to see them. I was not in gd form today, having pimples and wearing specs...OMG!!! Suddenly all my low self confidence came to me...I felt like hiding myself...

I thought to myself that if his gf today is Huifen or somebody else, things will be different. I don't have both looks and talents. I only know how to make "wa wa" sound and pple say I have a sweet voice. But wad's the use of all these? I must have made a bad impression for his aunt and ah ma!! How am I going to face them nxt time? Sld I just let him go? I think he deserves somebody better than me. Am I blocking him "tao hua"? If today I'm not together with him, will he be happier? Am I an embarrassment to him? Am I a burden to him? I dunno...suddenly feel so useless and sad...

I must change from head to toes!! I want to be more confident and change for the better. I must learn to look better and be strong in at least 1 area. I want to go travelling, make more friends, dancing and learn singing! No matter if we'll still be together after 1 or 2 more yrs(as feelings often disappears as time goes by). After wad had happened to my friend, I no longer have any confidence in relationship.(it has happened to me once too). I was afraid the same thing would happen again. If it happen again, I don't think I'll have any courage to face it anymore....

Yanting felt abit disappointed for not winning anything as he wanted very much to become a DJ. But I believe he still has chance. No matter what I'll still support him...he's already a winner in my heart...I think that he's already done his best. He's so gd that I think I'm not gd enough for him...

Today we went to compass point! There is a FM1003 踢馆大擂台 event there recruiting new DJ. As it's always been dear's wish to be a DJ, I went there together with him for the audition and registration. There are 4 rounds. 1st, you need to self intro, 2nd u need to choose a situation which you need to solve, 3rd u need to choose a topic and talk abt it in front of a camera and lastly, ur talent. Dear dear said abt the programme Ken is hosting. He said the road broadcasting of the cars in the causeway shld be every hr. He did a good job and got in the the semi-finals! I was so happy for him but his friend did not get in. There'll be another audition in Northpt nxt sat.

I got my results on Tues(2 Sep)! As I was having tuition on that day, I only checked and know my results at night. I was quite worried when I knew that results was out from my friend. I was having tuition then and I decided to look at it after all my tuition so that it'll not affect my tuition. In the end, I got third class honours! Most of my friends got a pass. It was quite ok for me although I failed game theory and optimisation theory(condoned). Actually I aimed for 2nd but overall I am still satisfied. I finally graduated!!! =P


Just an addition to the event that happened on Mon(1 Sep) (forgot to write last time): I saw a person who looked like Min Hao on the train an my way to PS. However he did not see or recognise me as he was standing and sleeping. He was wearing a polo shirt and jeans. When I was alighting, I even stood in front of him but he did not call me. So I did not dare to call him too just in case I recognise the wrong person.

Monday again! Time to redeem for free movie tickets with UOB NOW card! (it's written in tues as it's already passed 12am) As usual, I overslept again. Luckily Huixian woke me up but she went with her sister as I would be very late. Dear dear overslept too. We watched Meet Dave. Huixian and her sis watched 10.30am while dear dear and I watched 12.20pm. At first we thought we would not be able to redeem it as Huixian already no. 45 and today is the start of 1 wk hols. But in the end dunno why I ended up being no. 15...haha...

Meet Dave is quite a funny show. It is saying abt Dave(a robot/spaceship in the form of human) who came from another planet. He knew nothing abt the earth and find everything strange. Later he started to learn and adapt the lifestyles if humans by staying together with a small boy and his mother. Dave knew the mother by coincidence of a car accident. The mission of Dave is to use a "magnet ball" to get the water on earth to save their own planet, thereby destroying earth. In the end, the captain began to like the earth and decided not to destroy but another leader disagreed. The other leader later forced to become a captain and became violent and destructive. The police went after him. In the end, the original captain took control again but could not go back as all energy used up. The small boy helped him by giving him electricity and left in a shoe. Overall, not bad...hehe...

Later in the evening, I went to causeway and pasar malam for awhile. I saw an ambulance pushing a man in. I think it should be the hand injury as his hand is covered up.

(Shld be sun cos' I editted it tat's y it became mon) Wkend again! But this wkend seems so scary for me! Cause' I will be knowing my results nxt wk...really hope everything will be alright. (OS:神啊，帮帮我吧！) It is the opening ceremony of the crocs outlet at PS today. I went there at abt 12.15pm. They're having their opening ceremony at noon and giving out mystery gift for the 1st 100 customers. So, dear dear and I decided to go there to see what the mystery gift is...as usual...haha... There is a lion dance when I reached there but I did not watch it and went to queue just in case it is more than 100. After abt 5 to 10 mins, we were allowed into the shop! We got something like a shoes accessory. Alot of "panda" designs shoes accesories. Better than what I thought although dear dear expect a pair of shoes...hehe... Crocs have a new series of shoes and bags. More varieties. All of them have "holes" for you to put the shoes accessories! However we did not buy anything as they're quite expensive...54 onwards and children ones are nicer...keke...

Just as we stepped out of PS,a group of red cross girls approached us for donations to NUH. I saw them being so enthusiastic so I donated $1 and dear dear donated 20 cents. They gave us 2 green bands. At first I though nothing of it but when dear dear said he only donated 20 cents, I realised I donated too much. But nvm, the girls were super happy when we donated. Heard their excitement...think they're the 1st time doing this...keke...at least we made them happy.

After that, we went to parkway parade. We took bus 14 from outside PS so we need to walk some distance after alighting. There are alot of cars when we passed somewhere near suntec cos' of Comex so we did not go to Comex. Moreover we have nothing to buy.It was raining on our way there but luckily it did not rain when we reached there. When we alight, we walked past a stretch of food stalls. All looked delicious and special! We kept walking and finally decided to stop at a shop named "蓬莱阁" to eat. It specially sells taiwan food and the door is unique...push sideway to go in. It originally had a shop at bugis too but closed down. We ate 炸酱面，濡肉饭(dunno correct anot) and 波霸奶茶(which is milk tea). All are very different from other places! Really "imported" from Taiwan...lol... The 2 bosses are all very friendly. Chats with almost all the customers! We knew that their family has been doing food business for generations by chatting with them. That's why they can offer such a wide variety of food. They came here as their children are studying here. Dear dear is interested in franchising and so asked abit abt that. The lady boss said if the person is willing to learn and a good location they're willing to do so. In the past, a person did not put effort and the food was awful. In the end they stopped him from selling. We were chatting with her very happily when suddenly just as we left, we saw her putting a bad face. We dunno what had happened. Isit she don't like dear dear or we made her think abt her bad experience? The whole meal cost abt $20 for 2 persons...quite ok...

After eating, we finally went to parkway parade. However it's already 4pm and dear dear needs to work at 5pm. We went to a shophouse there and I bought a pair of shoes(low cut boots) for just $10 at crazy shoes. It is very nice and I like it alot. We also went to the gramophone at parkway. After that, dear dear went to work and I walked around myself. When I walked towards the pushcart of dead sea co, a caucasian or german(not sure) approached me. He told me his friend is a gay. He is going for a party today and has to bring a gf. As his mother do not know he's a gay, he needs to find somebody to accompany him and asks me if I'm free to do so. I was totally shocked as this is the first time I had such an experience. I jus lied to him and said I had something to reject him. Luckily he did not do anything and allowed me to go off...hehe... I went home soon after that taking bus 966. Dear dear was late for work as there's a traffic jam.

When I reached causeway point, I went to help my brother buy files for school purposes with my mother and youngest brother. Then we went to eat KFC zinger buddy meal, buy milk and then went home.

Below is a song by elva which I like alot. Listened to this song on my way home and had alot of feelings with the lyrics. They're so meaningful! Exactly the same words which described how I once felt in my life...

换季前夕的阵雨
像远行前依依不舍 最后 巡礼
没能一起看成的那部
在重播的深夜让我想起你
答应自己 没有你 也要努力过下去
变成友谊的爱情
藏在心里 忘了时间 还继续 前进
从没刻意对你的消息回避
朋友还是礼貌的只字不提
她属于你 我之后 的爱情
我之后的你 在她的爱里
真的确定 过去都已过去
你之后的我 比较爱自己
也决心 一个人练习 不那么想你
难以解释的心情
下次遇见在同一条街上 也许
你已不在意介绍新的恋情
听你说再次见面感觉温馨
只怕你发现 还没有人 走进我生命
终于确定 过去都已过去
偶尔想你 也未必 是不可理喻
有些困难的事情 等时间处理
我渐渐听见了心里的声音
原来真正的幸福 那么容易
懂得了祝福 只要你爱得 再也不犹豫
陪回忆写完了日记
告诉自己停止再想你
我之后的你 终于确定 过去都已过去
你之后的我 懂得爱自己
让回忆不留痕迹
我会自己停止再想你