It's the finals of DJ hunt at causeway point! I'm so excited! Yanting was performing together with his partner, Huifen, from NTU. I heard that she's a very interesting and mass media person from Yanting. And a living jukebox too just like Yanting! hehe... She had gone to Taiwan before and taken photos with alot of my idols like Show Luo and Rainie Yang and attended alot of mass media conferences.

Some of Yanting's friends come down to support him too, including Mathew, Shun Yong and my friend, Huixian. Yanting was very touched that his friends really came down to support him. (But wad abt me?I went down too but not touched at all...)The first performance was a 3mins show. Yanting and his partner performed an OMY radio station interviewing Ruan Jing Tian(Yanting acting). It was quite humorous. After the performance of the 5 grp, Yanting's grp being the last one, they announced the top 5.

And...Yanting got into top 5!!! He's the only guy who went into top 5 and I'm so proud and happy for him! Huifen got in too. Next, they had to choose 1 question and do "on the spot" hosting. Huifen chose a Wang Lee Hom concert and got Yanting up the stage (posing as Lee Hom) and a guy called Wei Jian(acting as guest, Jay) to act. Yanting did a great job in personating as Lee Hom! He was also invited up when Jing Yi was hosting a wedding dinner. Yanting was the groom and Huifen the bride(Jing tong yu nu). They were asked to "kiss"(but juz acting). At that moment, I really felt that they're really very compatible. Yanting is good looking and Huifen not bad looking too and they share the same interests.

After the whole show, Huifen got the talent award and Jing Yi was the winner. Yanting did not get anything but I think that his overall performance is already very good. Furthermore, the DJ stressed that even though never get any awards, there's still chances of being a DJ. He took pictures with his friends after the whole thing but the one with me is super ugly(he nv even look at the camera!).But I tink he's shagged cos he looked lost and in a daze so I nv take another photo(so sad...the onli photo he nv look at the camera is me...am I so unimportant?) His ah ma, mother and aunt came too and I din noe abt it! I was so shocked to see them. I was not in gd form today, having pimples and wearing specs...OMG!!! Suddenly all my low self confidence came to me...I felt like hiding myself...

I thought to myself that if his gf today is Huifen or somebody else, things will be different. I don't have both looks and talents. I only know how to make "wa wa" sound and pple say I have a sweet voice. But wad's the use of all these? I must have made a bad impression for his aunt and ah ma!! How am I going to face them nxt time? Sld I just let him go? I think he deserves somebody better than me. Am I blocking him "tao hua"? If today I'm not together with him, will he be happier? Am I an embarrassment to him? Am I a burden to him? I dunno...suddenly feel so useless and sad...

I must change from head to toes!! I want to be more confident and change for the better. I must learn to look better and be strong in at least 1 area. I want to go travelling, make more friends, dancing and learn singing! No matter if we'll still be together after 1 or 2 more yrs(as feelings often disappears as time goes by). After wad had happened to my friend, I no longer have any confidence in relationship.(it has happened to me once too). I was afraid the same thing would happen again. If it happen again, I don't think I'll have any courage to face it anymore....

Yanting felt abit disappointed for not winning anything as he wanted very much to become a DJ. But I believe he still has chance. No matter what I'll still support him...he's already a winner in my heart...I think that he's already done his best. He's so gd that I think I'm not gd enough for him...