Countdown time! It is the last day of 2008! I went to the channel 8 countdown party at vivo. It was the first time channel 8 is holding an outdoor countdown. I gave 2 tics to Hx and her friend. She joined her other friends in the Ou Xuan fan club. All of the them were wearing white.

There were Soul, Yi shi jie, Li ming shun, shawn....and alot of other singers attending. It was quite ok and a live telecast. However I was not able to watch the fireworks as it was blocked by the shelter.

Overall it was ok but I felt that the atmosphere was not as fun and happening as the previous year. There seemed to be lesser people in the mrt train too as compared to last yr.

I went for class gathering at orchard. As usual, only the few of us turned up. Ben,jy,huilin,siew,ps,jiayi,binglin and me! hehe... We decided for awhile where to go for dinner and finally decided on seoul garden as it was the cheapest there...keke...



However the food was not very fresh. The soup base is tasteless and the prawns are not fresh. Jy became very tanned. Ben is abit tanned too but not as tan as jy...haha...



After eating we went to drink at starbucks paragon. But only ben bought the drink as the rest was very full.

There is an online shop at Bukit Panjang having sales! The shop was just beside popular. It sells those goods imported from taiwan, from bags, shawls to clothes. Some were even new arrivals! Clothes are only selling at $10 and bags $15.

I bought a dress which I think can only be worn in cold areas and a "rainie yang" shirt. Both were last pieces...haiz...but very worth it...However I cannot try or exchange them.

I went to city square again with Jaron and his friend, Junjie, and my best friend, Hx. We reached there super early as we wanted to sing the morning ktv at 10am. His friend is very punctual and so we reached at abt 9.30am.

We sang till 1pm and ate the salad buffet and a main dish. I and hx in a room and the rest in another as we could sing longer that way. After the buffet, we went shopping. I felt abit of cramp while shopping and Jaron felt like vomitting...indigestion...We went to buy medicine but can only find pills. He wanted powder. After that he went to vomit everything out. However, he was still unwell so we went to mac to rest.

He slept for awhile and vomit again. But this time he was fully well. So we continue shopping. Our friends did not buy anything. We ate sushi king for dinner. The meal Jaron ordered tasted awful...like economice rice(as Jaron described)...the rest was ok.

We went home at abt 9pm. There was a traffic jam and so I reached home at abt 10 plus.

I went for training at university cultural centre(UCC) as an usher from 1 to 6pm. It is somewhere near NUS and I took bus 96 from clementi. They gave us a brief overview of what we need to do and an introduction. After that, we went for a tour of the whole centre to see the surroundings.

There will be a max of 2 mths probation period and after which become an official usher. I had a bad flu for the whole day. However, Jaron instead of concerning me, he scolded me for not taking care of myself! What kind of bf is he?! When I said abt breaking up, he even agreed! He said he could not tolerate my weaknesses! In the past, blur is a plus point. But when together, blur becomes a minus point! Why is he always so heck care and I am always the one being sad? He can take our relationship so lightly that sometimes I think he does not like me anymore.

I always tolerated his short temper too...don't I give in too? Why can't he do the same? Aren't relationships abt giving in and accepting the person for who he/she is? Is it cos' our relationship is too long? Last sat, my friend told me she was back with her ex. I hope she won't get hurt again and her ex has really learnt his lesson and don't hurt her again.

Should I be like my friend and break up with Jaron? But I know he won't woo me back like my friend's ex. He will just leave...that's why I need to consider carefully...Anyway I am already very happy that we had been together once as I always thought that a person like me won't be able to have such a gd bf. Maybe I cannot meet up to his expectations....maybe I should let him go to find somebody that suits him....maybe that'll be happier for both of us...maybe....

Today I went to watch movies....and before I went for the movie, I went to the toilet. As a door was not locked, I pushed open the door to go in. To my shock, there was a little girl sitting on the toilet bowl!!! I was so shocked that I faster say sorry and closed the door...haha...I think the girl was shocked too...Why the mother was not there to help her look after the door? Haiz...if I were her, I would be so embarrassed...

Today baobei went to 883 for recording as he participated in a campus competition and got into finals again. He went for the recording from 10 to 11pm. He was on air for abt 3 times, 2 mins each. In the final section when the DJ asked him if there's anyone he would like to thank, he said out a few names.

My name was mixed in the middle of his friends names and he said munling instead of joyce. Is it because he did not want others to know he had a gf? I think his cousins and parents are listening that's why he dared not emphasize. He emphasized his friend instead as she called to encourage him before the recording and asked if he would say out her name. He also emphasized his family and I am the only one left out as just friends. That's why I am in a strange position when this kind of situation occurs. He could not emphasize me. If his parents and relatives know abt me, he could just say it(but not sure if he would).

Last time when he participated in 1003, his aunt, mother and grandmother came to support him in the finals. After the whole thing, we still had to act as friends in front of his parents. He did not bother abt me. They went to eat after that and he asked me if I wanted to go along. I rejected it as I did not know what position I was to eat with them. As friends? Or as gf? I even felt shy in front of them. I did not know if I should go over to greet and talk to them or just act blur as friends. As usual, he was insensitive to me.

This time his finals will be at the heerens there. Will the same situation happen again? Will I meet his parents again? This time mayb I will just watch at one corner and go off with my friend after that. In that case I will not feel awkward again.