I went for training at university cultural centre(UCC) as an usher from 1 to 6pm. It is somewhere near NUS and I took bus 96 from clementi. They gave us a brief overview of what we need to do and an introduction. After that, we went for a tour of the whole centre to see the surroundings.

There will be a max of 2 mths probation period and after which become an official usher. I had a bad flu for the whole day. However, Jaron instead of concerning me, he scolded me for not taking care of myself! What kind of bf is he?! When I said abt breaking up, he even agreed! He said he could not tolerate my weaknesses! In the past, blur is a plus point. But when together, blur becomes a minus point! Why is he always so heck care and I am always the one being sad? He can take our relationship so lightly that sometimes I think he does not like me anymore.

I always tolerated his short temper too...don't I give in too? Why can't he do the same? Aren't relationships abt giving in and accepting the person for who he/she is? Is it cos' our relationship is too long? Last sat, my friend told me she was back with her ex. I hope she won't get hurt again and her ex has really learnt his lesson and don't hurt her again.

Should I be like my friend and break up with Jaron? But I know he won't woo me back like my friend's ex. He will just leave...that's why I need to consider carefully...Anyway I am already very happy that we had been together once as I always thought that a person like me won't be able to have such a gd bf. Maybe I cannot meet up to his expectations....maybe I should let him go to find somebody that suits him....maybe that'll be happier for both of us...maybe....