Everything seems to happen so fast....one moment I m very sad, one moment I am very happy....one moment I give up, one moment I regret... I admit I still have not totally forgotten or given up...mayb tats the bad pt abt me...cannot make up a decision and too easily persuaded...anyway I m not a person who can easily forget abt something...esp relationships... and there r things I dun wish to forget...mayb tats wad they said...happy memories ba...but I m really not prepared and not brave enough le...

Mayb wad I need is time ba...mayb one day if I m touched by the things he has done, I may find back my courage. Anyway I dun wanna be his burden. I wanted very much to tell him to wait for me...but I m afraid I may be wasting his time again and hurt his feelings. Most importantly, I dun wanna hinder his future. Although I say I wanna forget, but said is easier than done. I m still very "she bu de!" I really miss him alot....but for the sake of his own good, I m willing to do anything...including forcing myself to forget him...(zhi yao ni kai kou, wo she me dou yuan yi zhuo!) I think somewhere deep in my heart, there is always a "place" reserved specially for him. I hope one day we can really forget all the unhappy things tat happened and will be happy together!