Everything seems to happen so fast....one moment I m very sad, one moment I am very happy....one moment I give up, one moment I regret... I admit I still have not totally forgotten or given up...mayb tats the bad pt abt me...cannot make up a decision and too easily persuaded...anyway I m not a person who can easily forget abt something...esp relationships... and there r things I dun wish to forget...mayb tats wad they said...happy memories ba...but I m really not prepared and not brave enough le...

Mayb wad I need is time ba...mayb one day if I m touched by the things he has done, I may find back my courage. Anyway I dun wanna be his burden. I wanted very much to tell him to wait for me...but I m afraid I may be wasting his time again and hurt his feelings. Most importantly, I dun wanna hinder his future. Although I say I wanna forget, but said is easier than done. I m still very "she bu de!" I really miss him alot....but for the sake of his own good, I m willing to do anything...including forcing myself to forget him...(zhi yao ni kai kou, wo she me dou yuan yi zhuo!) I think somewhere deep in my heart, there is always a "place" reserved specially for him. I hope one day we can really forget all the unhappy things tat happened and will be happy together!

Many things happened during this period of time when I did not write my blog. Firstly, dear dear broke up with me! I was so sad that I fell sick. However I had no one to blame but myself. I brought it upon myself. From now on, I had to learn how to be independent. Nobody will be there for me when I lost my way, nobody will be there for me when I need to know if the things are worth the money, nobody will be there for me to give me opinions of how nice the dresses are, nobody will be there to inform me abt sales and gd "lobangs" and alot more................

Secondly, I m working at Pantages Hollywood at Universal studios freelance crew now. The pple there are super friendly! But dear dear is stationed at battlestar gelatica. Although we are quite near, we nv met.....He does not wish to see me or talk to me. Thus I decided not to disturb him for some time as he said he's enjoying his life now. *sob*......

Thirdly, my relationship with toufu man seems to be more complicated. We became closer but I was afraid of hurting him. He's really a very gd and caring person who deserves a better person than me. I m jus a normal girl who's always blur and always make pple angry. He really helped me alot thru the period when dear dear broke up with me. Sometimes I would think if I m really worth his love. No matter wad, thx for everything!! Thx for tolerating all my nonsense, thx for all the care and concern, thx for ur help, thx for ur company and thx for being there for me when I needed u most.

髪でリボン編 Hair Tutorial Ribbon-shaped Up-do ロングヘアアレンジ

Nice ribbon...too bad my hair is nt as long and as thick as hers!!

How To: Style a Bun Bao

This is a video which I found yest. She's really an expert in DIY!!! I really learnt alot from her!

I feel so 呆 recently! I was cheated by Jay and 2 newcomers, James and Terence! Jay impersonate as a pre-en calling my project phone and asked me out for dinner. He said he was George Michael and said I could ask Ivy along if I m afraid. He also remembered who I m as he said I was the one who spoke very fast. He said he owned the F1 race track and has a degree in mechanical engine and owns science technology. And guess what....I really believed everything!

Actually there are alot of loopholes but I did not realise it! I even went to check paces and there is really such a person! But lives in FLora rd while he told me he's in pasir ris and mount faber hills. He said he could give me 20 tics to front row of F1 and I even went around to gather pple!! So paiseh!!! There was once I walked out of the room but nv see Jay talking to me. In the end they asked me to call the person then I saw Jay taking out his phone. I tot it was Madu and called again till he told me it was HIM!! I then went to tell everybody the F1 race was a scam...omg...feel so deceived!!!!*sob*....

The 2 new medics bluff me too by saying each other's name. James told me he was Terence and vice versa. I jus happened to realise it when they accidentally spill it out when chatting. But I talked to Terence b4 jus tat I had forgotten the looks cos all look the same w/o hair! Haiz...

It's Adeline's housewarming! We went after work and took bus 169 change to 138. Sheng Tong taught us how but we still got lost after he dropped us at thomson rd...haha...We exceeded the bus stop and went back. Sheng Tong went for award ceremony first.

We reached abt 2 plus and Adeline's house is very nice!!! 3 storey and has a white elegant theme! Her husband is very humorous and friendly too! He kept offering us beer and wine! Lianghui drank the most as he finished the fastest...haha...Her cousin, Pauline, brought her dog and her dog liked Adeline's 15 mth old daughter alot! She even kissed the dog!!omg...so cute!!!

After that I rushed home for my grandma's b'day celebration. I took the cab together with Wei Hong and Liang Hui till Yishun.

I came out soon after I reached home and went to Sembawang for a big feast! I was super full as I had already eaten at the housewarming. My uncle's wife brought red wine so I drank another round again. Then we went to my uncle's house to cut cake. My grandma was so happy and everybody had a good time together! They even planning to go Genting during x'mas!hehe... YEAH!! HAPPY B'DAY AH MA!!!! May u be happy always and stay healthy!=P

Sad, sad, sad......We got scolded by our bosses(ST,YY,F) today. We missed out a few count no. last fri and we changed the subject no. However, Adeline wants us to change count no. Thus, we repeated our previous mistake.

The mistake was done when somebody accidentally tear the count no. from the other side. Adeline is on mc but called Ivy to ask wad happened. We told her we changed the subject no. as she said minimal error and we thought subject no. coulde be changed!

We were very afraid of being sacked and so we both cried. We went back to dso and had meeting. We OT till 9pm! Fredrick they wall did not wanna sack us but he said cos' of this he had to overwrite Adeline. Adeline wanted to dismiss us. Now it seemed that she is the "bad" person when she's not! We also raised the issue of lack of staffs so we having a new colleague soon.

Recently I m guilty to so many pple! Adeline, ST, YY, Fredrick, ex......
This is really our last chance. Chikada saved me another time. Thx!=P

I watched 娱乐百分百, previous episode, as I missed it the other time. They are all talking abt the 台风 which hit 台南 recently. Alot of pple died and there were floods everywhere. Alishan is destroyed and the people there were mourning over the deceased....a sad scene...

I was very sad on seeing the news and wanted to help them too. The artistes in Taiwan also helped by donating money. It made me realise how lucky we were to be staying in a "natural disaster free" country and：

生命是如此的脆弱，没有人知道明天会发生什么。
所以我们要珍惜我们拥有的一切，不要失去了才后悔！

I watched ep 11 of 败犬女王 too...It is very touching when they realised that it was all 误会 and they had wasted 6 yrs...And as usual...I cried as I was touched by it too when they knew the truth...I like a phrase in the show:

八倒过来看就是无限大的可能！(infinity)

Today Yixun and I went to mass room to chat as he asked me if I could be his gf. As Xing Cai and Renda are sleeping in the darkroom, he msg to ask me. He asked me b4 when there were onli the 2 of us last last mon. He locked the door and we chatted. I told him that I would consider at that time.

We chatted abt 2 hrs in the room. He told me he had 9 failures in love during his 3yrs in MI. All rejected him. He said the 1st had bf, 2nd is nt gd....the previous one is gd but being rejected and so he said I am the best. However, I told him I am not gd and not worth him being sad over me. Furthermore, I have no feelings for him. I even told him to change but he asked if he could ask me the q again after he had changed. However I know it is impossible. I just don't have that 心跳加速的感觉! Maybe cos I may have "somebody" in my heart w/o me knowing or mayb I have not forgotten abt "dear dear".

Me and "小白脸"



We had class gathering at SSC. We ate Astons for dinner. However, the food there is not very gd...ok onli... JY hair has become golden from red!lol... He even told us alot abt this batch uni pple. The guys are so pampered that they dun even dare to go into the mud. On fright night, they even trembled and there were 2 guys who even asked each other if they could HOLD HANDS!!OMG... On SP night, they even asked q like "wad do u tink abt michael Jackson's death?" And when asked of their OG group so that my fren, OGL, can bring him back to slp, he even refused to say! Diaoz...

After that we went to play mahjong at BL's house! It was the first time I won! (even though onli $5 plus and I used it to buy drinks for everybody)

And at the same time....
Everybody knows that I had broken up with "dear dear"....

OMG....He's Sooooooo CUTE!!!=P


We started working on sat and after work, Ivy and I went to IMM to see Wilber Pan!He's still as "boy boy" as ever!Esp when he cut his new hairstyle!keke...I did not buy his album as the new version is sold out! The old version onli left 3. I was tempted to buy but decided to watch first. The DJ is Peifen.

His hand is injured so he could not sign and changed it to a "hugging" session! Luckily I did not buy!hehe...BUT I will buy it eventually cos he's the BEST!!!LOL...

Rainie Yang came too but I could not go and see as it needs tics and I cannot win!*sob*....But I saw her wearing quarter pants, abit loose... in youtube. Guess tat shld be the "in" thing now...I am going to buy one online!!haha...

Today Yixun had something to tell me. He wanted to tell me before work starts. However I was late. So he did not tell me anything till case cut. Ivy had something on at home so she took half day off in the afternoon. Wei Hong came to help too but half day here too.

I knows what he wants to tell me and I know that I could not avoid it. He will tell me sooner or later. I do not want to hurt him as I know that he had been hurt previously and he was very sad. He said he remembered very clearly as he had a good memory. He took abt half a yr to recover! And he is a person who do extreme things. How am I to tell him that I only regard him as bro? I do not want him to go back to the past and say "Love is a weapon of mass destruction"! I do not want to hurt him nor do I want anybody to be sad cos of me! Furthermore if I can accept him, why I cannot accept Youquan in the past? He is very gd too and I had feelings for him too. But I was afraid there'll be alot of prob for us due to age(smaller by 3 yrs too) and decided to let him go. I know he's very sad and he sacrificed alot for me, talking on the phone everyday(so bill burst) and scolded by parents. Haiz...suddenly memories keep coming back...hope he's doing fine and has found a girl 100 times or more better than me! Jiayou Youquan! I will be here 默默为你加油!!

When case cut, Meng siang came into dark room to tell me abt him and Ivy. He was sad that he and Ivy bacame lidat. He does not know if he should hang on or let go. I told him to give it a last try. If really cannot then let go. After that, Yixun came in and talked to me. He asked me if I knew he likes me. I feigned ignorance and said I tot it is all rumours. He said is all true and asked if I can be his gf. I do not know what to reply him so I said to consider. I continued to say I am not a gd gf and I am older than him. He said it's ok as his parents do not mind and he said I m nice and cute. Then I asked again y he do not like Ivy as normally pple will like her. He said he dunno y but just like. I continued to tell him abt the things that he should change like his eating style. We spent abt 30 to 45 mins talking lidat ba.

Today during work, Yixun wrote a Malay phrase. I do not wad it means. But then Ivy says he very daring and he explains to me after that. It means "I like this girl". I was too shocked for words. Then he changed the like to "sayang" which I dunno wad it means. But I think it shld be worse than like ba..haha...

Btw I meet Darren for dinner! SO long nv see him le!! We went to Isetan at lido there for Hello Panda fair. But when we reached there, it just closes! After that, we went to Yixun's mother shop upstairs. Her mother is English educated and very friendly. His uncle knows chinese medicine and help me to see. He says my nails are very thin and not enough "qi".

He helps Meng Siang to massage his hand as he asked him why his nails are black. Meng Siang is in pain for a period of time. Yixun's brother is very cute and looks like Yixun! Very active and likes to "twist".

Then Darren and I went to far east plaza to eat noodles. He treat me.

Older by 1 yr again...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!





Dun kill me kor kor....





Group photo!




204 gathering! We went to orchard again. Jun Yuan, Ben, Hui Lin, Peishan, Ming Siew, Yingjie, Yuankai, Jiayi, Binglin came. We knew that Hui Lin and Ben broke up due to different personalities and many other problems. They broke up 1st April! Huilin had test the following wk!

Ben changed. He smoked and even smoked the whole packet per day! He even had a left earhole. We went to breeks to eat. The ice cream was 1-for-1 and very big! They bought a cake to celebrate my birthday, from Bakerzia! I was so touched...din expect them to still celebrate it after so long! After that, all went home.

Peishan, Huilin, Ben and I went to clarke quay to continue drinking. We went Eski bar! The one which I wanted to go in the past! We ordered Eski Blue and some other alcoholic drinks. It was the first time I felt dizzy after drinking.It costs abt $244! Peishan and I shared a cab home, abt $30.

Today Moses asked me for my hp no. He was very sad recently as he just broke up with his gf. He said that he had no one to talk to tat's y he took my hp no. I gave him my email @ too. Everybody said he was a hypocrite with 2 personalities but I think he's harmless, at least to me. Instead, I find him pitiful as he seemed to have no frenz. His ord chalet is even cancelled as nobody wanted to go! He had to pay as he had already booked the chalet. However, he was very gd in shooting! He went into the next stage at suntec for arrow shooting!

Today I fell down! Ivy was rushing for time to watch movies so we took cab from NUS to Jurong east. I fell when my foot twisted and landed sitting on soil with rocks. So I was cut on the leg by the stones. Han Yang was also obviously wooing Ivy by looking at the msg. I think Ivy should tell them she has bf and dun let them have the wrong impression if she thinks that the person won't have any chances. Cos' if it was me I will not want to waste other pple's time too if I don't like that person. He can use that time to find other pple instead of wasting time on me.

When I just reached MMI with Edwin and Ivy, I saw a guy fell down in front of me. One of his legs broke the stone drain and went in! Everybody including me helped him up since he was directly in front of me.

When I was walking home in the big rain, I saw a guy almost fell cos' of slippery floor at my house downstairs.

I have my second welcome back gift. A guy named Min Jie said I was cute and wanted my facebook! At first I thought it was Ivy as it was Ivy who did the AS-OCT for him. He was a guy with an ah beng look. He was a fanciful ah beng cap with tattoos on hand. He msg to project phone and asked if I was Joyce.

I thought he recognised the wrong person as I did not really notice or see him. I just walked past him! So I gave Ivy the phone to reply him. However, Ivy asked him if he was looking for the one in strips or the one who did the AS-OCT for him. He said it was me but it seems unbelievable although Ivy said he could not make it.

Missing this VERY SCARY mini roller coaster!




I am finally back from Taiwan! I miss Taiwan!!! It is the first day of work since I came back and Ivy told me some things happened while I was away. Kar Beng became friends with her when Jesslin and her have conflicts. Jesslin is angry when Ivy just asked her something and she misinterpreted it and thought Ivy was putting words into her mouth. Moses pretended to talk to Ivy but he talked bad abt her at the back. He backstabbed other NS guys before too...like E-noch.

Ivy seems to like Kar Beng and he seemed to be more mature and "bad" as we see him. He talked differently in msg. Same for Han Yang. Yixun was playing darts for the whole day. Just as Ivy and I were digging papers for the next day, Yixun suddenly flew the dart past Ivy and hit my forehead! It flew past Ivy's face. Ivy scolded Yixun and Victor heard it. Ivy used alcohol as antiseptic and it was abit bleeding. Yixun later said sorry to me but I was not angry with him. I just hope that he'll not be emo and always think of committing suicide. Haiz...I think he should not brood over a girl and should move on!! There are alot of other good girls outside!! Jiayou!

The beach there is so different and the ROCK is super nice!!I am near the PACIFIC OCEAN!!!=P






So windy!!





sunset at yu ren ma tou...





The well-known queen's head







Nice lovers' bridge!Very romantic!

I came back to Singapore from Taiwan at 12am. Below are my Taiwan trip details!

Day 1
Go to 星光三越 and 渔人码头 see sunrise and sunset. There was a bridge there at yu ren ma tou called qing ren qiao. It was very nice at night with purple light and very romantic!

Day 2
Go to Tai Ru Ge mountain to climb and look at pacific ocean.
We go on a 1 day tour in a cab. The person who took us around was super friendly!
We went to Hualien too!

Day 3
Went to Taipei 101,Ximending and Shilin. Din do much. We did not go up 101 as it was too ex. It was actually a working building.

Day 4
Go to Ri Yue Tan (sun moon lake) and Tai Zhong.

Day 5
Went on a 1 day tour again. Go Jiufen, Yehliu and Keelung night market.
All are up the hills! Jiufen is something like street stalls in the hills.
We went to fly Tian deng too!

Day 6
We stayed at Taipei. Went to 五份铺 and Raohe night market.

Day 7
Shifted our service apartment to homestay near shilin night market.
Shan and Yixian went Gao Xiong by Gao Tie to fing Shan's cousin to bring them around.
Me and Esther stayed in Taipei as it was too ex!(fri considered wkends over there!)
We went shopping at Zhongshan and Taipei main station. Drink the famous coffee at 85 degrees cafe.

Day 8
Went 六福村, a theme park.
We only managed to go 2 themes(1 is palace) and there were many themes there! Need abt 6 hrs to finish all!
We sit water splash, boat riding by the stream,360 degrees turn, train ride thru a scarry and adventurous tunnel, theatre(like omni theatre), see scenery ride anda mini roller coaster with the seats moving 360 degrees.

It is my birthday today! However I was sick...flu...I went to work alone as Ivy needs to meet Adecco agent for philips shaver showgirl job. Every wkend 1-9pm @ $9/hr. She came abt 10 plus.

During lunch, I did not eat with Ivy as she said she's eating with her mum. I bought food back to eat at the station...burger...At abt 1pm, Ivy came back. She said there's a meeting at "the box", so Renda and I went there. I was shocked when I went in!! Everybody sang birthday song! I was so touched!! Ivy and Victor went to buy cake during lunch! They gave me a card and flower too!

When we go to DSO, Ying Ying wished me Happy Birthday. I was shocked too as I do not know that she knew abt it. Ivy told her. Then Frederick called me out in a fierce manner. I thought he was going to scold me. Then, Ying Ying suddenly sang birthday song! I was so shocked! She gave me a present too!

This is the year that I have the most surprises and shocks. But I am very happy!! I thought nobody would know...thanks everybody!